Elsewhere. | A Lizkook AU

18.

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It's the worst feeling, really. Lisa had spent three full days now being miserable with her own pathetic guilt that at one point, she thought that she might need some form of therapy! She left Jungkook's house that night thinking that her emotions were 100% correct but by the time she reached home...it all sank down on how she might be romanticising her trauma a little too far.

He didn't deserve that. He didn't deserve a lot of the things that she did to him. And what did he say...that I've been wanting him to fuck things up? He's probably right about that too. It's not fair of me to do that - put him in the spot like that and shouted at him for just being honest! He said he trusted me. I said I wouldn't run.

"It just comes naturally to you, maybe you didn't even realize that you're doing it," Jennie said calmly. Too calm in fact, that it confused her a little. "You're used to keep things to yourself. You've structured this discipline...as if your thoughts and feelings are the only ones you can rely on. It's not wrong...but it's not right either,"

"Yahh...speak human - we don't understand you!" It seemed like the two have switched personalities or something. Jisoo had been the more dramatic since Lisa opened up about what happened with Jungkook - hoping that her unnies could provide her with ways of redemption.

"I knew I was being too hard on him...but I only knew when it was too late," She looked down to her knotted fingers. "It's too soon to be asking that. I shouldn't have asked that,"

"No, it's not. You've been sleeping together..." The elder hushed Jennie but ended up being glared in return. "...and going around like a couple. You were in the moment. And in that moment, you wanted to know what it means. It's quite common, Lis,"

"Yeah, if I was anywhere near ready for it,"

"It's not rocket-science, Lis. Don't tell me you don't believe what he said,"

"I mean...in a nutshell, yes - of course our path is written but..."

"There's no 'but'. See where you're at, how far you've gone and the people around you. You won't be here if it's not for the pain - you won't grow,"

"I wouldn't ended up marrying Jin if he hadn't trip my fried chicken all over the floor when we first met," Jisoo nodded along.

"And you're happy now fighting over what to eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner!" Jennie laughed. "What I'm saying is...step one, don't deny that what he said was kinda right,"

Lisa sighed, feeling so much like crying over it.

"Step two, don't deny the fact that you made it into a big fucking deal,"

"I did...I so did," Another defeated palm on her face.

"Good girl. Step three, just admit to yourself that you like this guy more than you think you do already cus otherwise, we won't be sitting here, rationalizing things for you,"

Lisa took a deep breath and held it in longer. "Maybe slightly more,"

"No matter - since we're on the topic of telling you the whats-and-hows, you know what else you did?" Jennie cocked an eyebrow, making her nervous. "You shouted at him,"

"Nini, that's probably the main reason why she's here with us -"

"Sometimes I feel like I'm older than you - why is that?" Jisoo scoffed when Jennie's smirk hits her. "The all-too quiet Lisa shouted at the guy she likes...she didn't even shout at her ex! Whether it's right or wrong, you said it out loud so what could it mean?"

Jisoo gasped before cheering excitedly. "Wall's broken!!"

Lisa didn't know why but it made her excited too - grinning to them both like a fool as if she just accomplished a certificate of honour!