Formulas. Logical reasoning. Knowing that what is said is true. Real.
That's how I run my life. Everything can be explained and reasoned. There is no room for doubt or question. If something is questioned, it can be researched so that the answer is known. Not knowing how or why something works, is what will end up ruining me.
Emotions, are something I don't consider real. They're just chemical imbalances in the brain that trigger the body to react in a certain way. Which is why I seem like an soulless monster to most of my friends, because I can't and I won't show what isn't real. Something needs to be seen or touched or have the logical science behind why something is the way it is. I always have to prove my friends wrong if they say something that is incorrect or is just something that they make up. Whatever it is, I'm always correcting them or telling them that what they said isn't right. Sure, they probably hate me for doing it but it's the person that I am. I follow rules and understanding. Anything else just doesn't sit right with me.
Which is why when she suddenly changed something in me, I had to explain it. I had to figure out why I changed the way I did. I couldn't just change that dramatically without some sort of explanation. I had to figure out every possible outcome as to why this happened to me. This just isn't who I am.
