𝑾𝒆 𝒇𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝒊𝒏 𝑶𝒄𝒕𝒐𝒃𝒆𝒓. | Kang Sae Byeok.

CHAPTER 31.

"I'm sorry mom took so long, it must have been so hard for you. Raising Cheol, earning money for the both of you, I'm so sorry, my daughter." hugging me tighter as she sobbed,

I'm so tired, mom.

After the games, and after I lost her.

It was so hard for me to even spend the money, knowing that she died because she protected me.

Gi-hun and I went to therapy before facing our families, it was a difficult procedure because we couldn't even go through a day without the trauma of that place attacking the both of us,

Gi-hun was the first one who handled it well, but me?

Not so much.

Knowing that I left that place without the love of my life.

Leaving her there, her body there.

Our memories there.

It ruined me.

Because this was her dream, she told me.

If this was my goal, this was her dream.

She told me she wanted me to get my mom back and get Cheol out of that place for the three of us to finally be together.

"I finally got you mom, I finally got you. I got my goal. You're here, you're home." I cried, but as tears of joy fell down to the floor, tears of my pain begun drowning me.

"but I lost her mom, I lost-" I couldn't even say her name, it was so hard.

And even Cheol knew about her.

And he, he loved her as much as I did.

My mom looked at my face, as she wiped my tears smiling at me sadly.

I remember what Y/n told me as we talked about my mom, "everything will be gone, but a mother's love will always be there. Because it's one thing that will never disappear, it's love. And love, it never disappears, and it's beautiful. That's why you're still here, your mother's love is making you strong, and I'm so proud of you for that. "

I closed my eyes as her words crushed my heart, knowing she might have never experienced that kind of love from her own mom.

"I lost the love of my life mom, I lost her." I sobbed, crying like a child to her mother.

I couldn't care less about what I looked like as my mom only continued to wipe my tears with her gentle hands.

She hugged me, feeling her sobbing too.

"I lost Y/n."

The sound of her name coming out of my mouth became such a painful thing for me, as I even feel that stab Sang-Woo gave her.

"I couldn't protect her like what I did to you and Cheol. I lost her and it's all my fault," I was so close to losing all the water inside my body as tears continued to roll down my cheeks,

Remembering the sight of her, drowning in her own blood on that what used to be a white bed, but turned red as her blood soaked the sheets with Sang-Woo standing on the side of it.

I couldn't do anything.

I couldn't save her.

"it's going to be okay, I'm here Sae Byeok. Mommy's here, we'll go through this together."

*flashback over. *

I still couldn't say her name, but it's always in my mind.