I rushed through the halls finding my way too class, I find my seat and sat down without a word.
The teacher came in all excited and glowing.
"Ugh what could it be this time." We all sighed.
I saw a tall brown haired guy walk in, he smiled at everyone proceeding his way to find a seat, he sat right behind me.
"As I was saying, we have a new student!" The teacher yelled.
Everyone was completely speechless, i can tell the girls are already all over him.
"Hm.. pathetic" I told myself.
I tried looking behind me without making a scene, we both made eye contact.
I turned my head as if nothing happened.
"Please turn to page 105" the teacher said.
I grab my book from my overly filled backpack, I can see his piercing eyes looking at me from the side. He raises his hand dramatically as if he was trying to grab my attention.
"Ms. I don't have a book, could I share with someone" he said heading towards my desk.
The teacher nodded.
He sat directly towards me, with his golden brown eyes looking over me.
I look right at him with a smile,
"Hey I'm Amelia!" I said
"Hey Amelia, I'm JJ" he said while smiling.
I break the eye contact trying to find page 105, he looks down at the book as I struggle finding the correct page, He grabbed my hand and put it to the side flipping the page exactly to page 105, he looks at me chuckling.
"Thank you haha," I laughed.
We were practically reading and flirting the whole class, romantic isn't it. Haha.
The bell rings.
"Hey, thanks for sharing your book with me" he said scratching his head awkwardly.
"No problem" I smiled laughing.
We walked separate ways finding our way to our second class, I stop and see the popular girls infront of me pissed.
"Uhhh can I help you?" I questioned
"Stay away from him ok? He doesn't like you, don't get excited. Your so desperate." They said while walking away laughing.
Desperate? "How" I told myself.
My eyes filled up with tears trying not to cry, I ran to the closest bathroom and locked myself in the stall, I sat down against the inside of the stall trying to clean up my tears.
"How could I be desperate" I told myself.
The rest of the day I tried avoiding him, walking the complete opposite direction of where he was walking towards.
The bell rings.
"Finally the last period." I told myself.
Oh god, I see him walking towards me as if I was his golden possession. He walked right passed me, he was walking towards the girls..(Emma, Chelsea, maya) he grabbed Emma's waist pulling her towards him looking into her eyes, they both kissed eachother as if nothing else mattered.
"Why" I told myself.
Why am I jealous? I'm not even dating him, why.
I turn my head around as if I saw nothing, I speed walk out the doors trying not to look back.
I stop. "Shit" I told myself .
MY BOOK. I left it in my locker,
I run back in the school looking down at my shoes. Next minute I know I see him, not thinking I run into him falling with him on the cold hard ground, me falling directly on top of him.
"Jesus" JJ yelled.
I frantically get off him apologizing.
I look over to see Emma and her friends pissed.
"Omg, you little slut! We all know why you did that, your so desperate omg." Emma screamed.
Her friends laughing.
"G-guys enough." JJ said looking down.
My eyes fill up with tears, I run out to the doors totally forgetting about my book. Tears run down my face as i run through the streets trying to find my way home.
I frantically find my keys in my bag, struggling to open the door while crying hysterically. I finally open it after the 10th try, I take my shoes off tossing them angrily at the shoe rack, I run up the stairs tripping some of the steps, I enter my room slamming the door shut behind me. I sat down against my room wall, crying.
"Desperate"
That word kept coming up in my mind.
I get up and to go to the bathroom, entering it while slamming it shut behind me.
I sit down with a broken Glass piece in my hand, I slide it down my pale white skin cutting it, My blood gushing out while I scream in pain.
My vision starts to blur as my blood covers the bathroom floor.
"Finally" I smiled
The feeling I missed.
I see blue, red, purple, lights out.
