"What the heck is wrong with you!?", I shouted and he flinched.
"You know I love you so much and YES, IT HURTS ME! IT HURTS SO SO FUCKING MUCH THAT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. And I am not the indecisive type of person, you know that... yes, Jake?", I say as tears were threatening to flow out of my eyes.
Jake just looked at the ground, his fists clenched into a fist and were trembling a bit. It hurts me, but what he did was something that I can't forgive.
"say something!"
There was still no response. I sighed and closed my eyes. I said with a 'dead' voice, " let's break up, should we?" "what!?! no! i don't want-"
i cut him off sharply," i want to. i can't bear you kissing other girls that, in normal language, is called 'cheating. I don't want to be with you anymore, okay? please, i don't care what you think right now, sim jaeyun. Neither do you care, we both know very well. so shut up, and i am going if you gonna follow me, get ready to die, and am not kidding"
and there I walked out of the class.
as i came out of the school, I realised it was already evening and the worst thing, it was raining. and obviously me being an idiot, didn't bring any umbrella.
but, right now I don't even care if I am drenched or not, and I stepped out in the rain. At once, I was fully drenched because of the heavy rain, luckily i always keep my phone in a plastic pocket and bonus, I don't have my books with me today.
as i walked and walked in the rain... no tears came out. I broke up with someone who I thought was my whole life. I just don't know... I don't feel sad, or heartbroken or angry or anything in particular... except that i actually lost my best friend because of this asshole, and that best friend is park sunghoon. my childhood best friend. We still talk, almost everyday.... but not that close we used to be before i started dating jaeyun.
out of nowhere, a small scoff escaped my lips as I looked at the sky. squinting my eyes almost shut, cuz of the heavy raindrops falling.
I was so drenched that now I am so cold, I started to sneeze and have a runny nose... and a small headache due to the chillness running down my spine.
It was dark now as I reached my place... the open garden where I always go whenever I am tired and don't want to go home to loneliness.
I sat on the wet bench, my knees close to my chest, because I was cold. Bringing out my phone, i dialed sunghoon's number... my hands shivering ,like anything. It stopped raining but the wind was too cold, i can feel my head pounding and me slowly falling sick, but i don't care right now.
he picked the call in just one ring,
"what happened?" he said before i could say hello making my chuckle.
"How the heck do you know? I didn't even say anything yet?"
"Well, basically at this time you are with Jake and you never ever call until and unless you ain't okay... and.... YOU SOUND SICK GIRL, WHERE YOU AT!? where is JAKEEE!?", he almost shouted in worry and i chuckled.
"i am at our usual place... i am not with jake and... i am drenched and- A- ACHEW", i sneezed before i could say anything...
"I am coming, just do not go anywhere! okay?", he was so worried which made me laugh a little bit.
"Okay, but be on the phone... I don't want to be alone right now please."
i sound so pathetic right now.... that i could practically hear sunghoon's panicked breaths.
