Tabi (ThomArra One Shot)

Sa 'yong tabi..

I’m a sucker of Happy endings and fairy tale love stories..

Naniniwala ako that one day, I’ll find that special someone.

My special someone na makikilala ko sa isang coffee shop, he’ll spill something to me. That will highly irritate me.

But then, our eyes will meet. Our hands will meet. And poof.. the world will be slow.. everything behind him will be blurred and siya lang ang makikita ko..

I do believe that my Once upon a time will start very soon..

And I’ll meet my prince charming very soon..

But.. Life is not like that.. Sometimes, or should I say most of the time –It is realistic.

No slow-mos, no sparks, no guy I’ll meet in a coffee shop.

Instead, it’s just me and my day dreams.

“Wow arra, fascinating. You must be really special” Those last words from the nurses left me hanging.

Napaupo ako sa garden ng Hospital, still wearing my hospital gown..

Still shocked, still astonished..

1 week ago..

I got the not so good news that I have a very fatal heart condition..

I got the not so good news that I’ll die very soon.

Great huh? ‘di manlang ako pinaabot ng 25.

Day 1,

Still lying in the hospital bed, my family cried around me. It sucks even more. Para akong namatay na agad. But duh, guys? Can we wait before kayo umiyak? Like on my real funeral? >_<

And there it goes, these stupid tears falling from my eyes..

I wiped my tears with my left hand, my right hand have dextrose ofcourse..

My mom hugged me and whispered ‘I love you’ to me. But that didn’t help, lalo lang akong naiyak.

“Anak, please don’t cry. You will fight okay? You’ll be okay” dad said while holding my wet hand.

“It’s okay dad, if its time to go then—“

My brother cut me off “No you can’t die. You won’t die!” he shouted crying “you need to be there on my graduation, on my birthday, on my first prom! You need to be there. You promised me!”

And there it goes, umiyak na ‘ko ng tuluyan.. I hate seeing them cry, but worse? I hate making them cry. I hate being the reason that they are crying..

But what can I do? Maybe my free trial of life is already over.

Day 2,

The day after that, the doctors did some therapy on me. Hoping that yes, maybe they can add a little more days to my ending-too-soon-life.

But, I admit. I am getting tired.. So instead of going back straight on my room. I asked my mom if I can pass by the chapel. She wants to join me, pero I insisted that maybe I need some time alone. Muntik na siyang hindi pumayag, but then I insisted.