The Second Chance

The dream

I'm sprinting down a dark tunnel to an unknown destination. I hear noise in front of me as I approach a light, suddenly I am standing under a street light and I know exactly where I was . In front of me is a blue sedan headed straight for me, the driver has his attention drawn behind him where a  child screams from her car seat. A semi quickly approaches in the wrong lane."Owen please turn around" I scream helplessly into the darkness as the semi crashes into him. I fall to my knees closing my eyes praying that it is all just a dream as voices start to surround me. I open my eyes to find I am no longer in the street, but in a church. I look to the front where 2 caskets lay surrounded by flowers, one much to small for a adult. I see Owens mother walking towards me " You little slut it is your fault my son is dead, had you just kept you legs shut you would have those two little mistakes but I guess now it is just one" She says laughing hystarically then I hear it the sounds of everyone laughing at me the poor single parent who got knocked up at 16. Everything goes silent as a priest steps up the podium "Mommy get up" He says staring right at me I blink in surprise. He says it again but this time in the voice of my daughter.

  I shoot up in my bed gasping for air tears stream down my face as I meet eyes with my adorable 5 year old. "Mommy what's wrong?" She asks jumping into my bed hugging me. "Just a bad dream sweetie, that's all" I hug her closer to me stroking her long blonde hair. "Was it about daddy and Amy" she asks looking at me with her green eyes swelling with tears "No princess it is okay don't cry. It was just a bad dream okay" I lie tickling Ana just to hear her giggle and forget about the nightmare. "So Ana what do you want for Breakfast?" I ask Ana is still giggling trying to catch her breathe " Can we have pancakes?" She finally gets out "Of course as long as you help make them" I get up staying in my pajamas walking into the kitchen Ana close behind. "Morning honey, How did you sleep?" I hear my dad ask from his spot at the counter, bowl of cereal in front of him. I open my mouth to speak "Mommy had a bad dream, she was crying" Ana says before I have the chance to. I stay quit as I walk to the cupboard to grab the pancake mix. "Is that true Sarah?" My father asks concerned in his voice."Ana sweetie can you go watch tv I will make breakfast." I turn to look at him with tears in my eyes " It was  4 years ago today dad. How am I suppose to leave her now" I feel him hug me "Life goes on Sar, you have to move on I know it is hard but this vacation is just what you need" he says I cry hysterically into my fathers chest I finally calm down wiping my face with my hands, I must look like a mess. "Now you go watch TV with your daughter I  will make you guys breakfast" my dad states pushing me  out of the kitchen.I sit down at the couch in the family room pulling Ana onto my lap "What do you want to watch sweetie" I ask grabbing the remote to turn on the TV "Can we watch Dance Dreamz ?" she asks with pleading eyes I laugh at her and get up to put her favorite movie into the blue-ray player.  "Not this movie again, you watch it all the time little one " I hear the voice of my mother from behind us as the opening scene begins. "Gramma I love this movie" Annie says "Well you will get sick of it at some point " My mom walks into the kitchen where smoke is starting pour out into the family room. " Hunter what the hell did you do in here" I hear my mom yell at my dad I laugh silently to myself about my parents relationship wondering if I will ever have that chance again . I start to pay attention to the movie as the main character Dawson starts to speak giving a motivational speech to the rest of the cast. This movie is about a young farm boy with a dream to dance who helps his school save  the spirit team and go to nationals. Basically the most girly cliche movie ever the only redeeming quality of this movie is  the hunky Lucas Green. Just as the farm boy is about to make his first inspirational speech I hear my mom yell to me that breakfast is ready. "So Sarah when are the girls going to be here?" My mom questions "Like in an hour" I say though a mouth full of food "Ugh your so lady like" my mom rolls her eyes at me drinking her coffee. "So what do you plan on doing in LA for the next 2 weeks" dad asks " Just chilling at the beach for the most part" I eat more pancake hoping the questions will stop "Mommy I'm going to miss you" I hear a sobbing Anastasia say I tear up as well getting up to hug her "I will miss you more then you will ever know baby girl I love you so much" pulling her closer to me "If you don't want me to go just say so and I will stay home with you" I say looking into her green eyes. "You will do no such thing Sarah Marie. You already paid and promised your friends you would go" My mother scolds "What your mother means is that you are going to have a great time being 21 for once not having to be a mom for a while" my dad adds glaring at my mom  "go get ready we can take care of Ana" I get up walking into my bedroom missing having my own place. I quickly shower letting my hair naturally dry into waves. I then put on comfortable floral shorts with a lose black tank top and a pair of black sandles  and light a pink beanie. I feel my phone go off in my pocket, looking at the screen I see the name Teagan. "Yes?" I say "We will be there in like 2 minutes " I can barley hear her over the sound of the radio blaring Complete Awkwardness's song Fear the Sasquatch. "Okay I will be ready" I hang up and grab my large suitcase and my backpack walking out of my room and to the  front door yelling to my family. I quickly say good bye to my mom and dad saving Ana for last. "Be good for grandma and gandpa okay? I don't want to hear you were bad while I was gone missy" I say stern face she smiles at me with tears glistening in her eyes "Yes mommy come home soon I love you" She says hugging me again. I get up grabbing my bags rushing out of the door not looking back since I know if I did I would not be leaving. I see Courtney's car out front as the  girls all wave hysterically at me I smile climbing into the car driving off to the sound of Complete Awkwardness realizing that maybe this trip will be fun and I will finally be able to move on from Owen or at least  reduce the pain I still feel.