Aaliyah: omgosh were soo happy your ok.
Mary: "yea " was all she said with a weak voice.
Mary: hows diggy?
Roc: hes fine he just has an fractured hip and hes been real tired but doctor said he will be fine.
mary smiled real big. and this time it was a real one.
Mary: that's wonderful......(sighs) what about...eran hows he?
everyone got real quiet then. we didn't know what to say.
Mary: so yall just gone fucking ignore me like that?! wheres my damn son?!
I knew somebody had to answer before she popped a vessel. plus we didn't want to stress her from what the doctor told us. so I took it upon my self to answer. she had to find out sooner of later.
Prod: hes not here mary.
Mary: damn well why didn't yall just tell me that? its good news that means he didn't get injured.so hes ok right?
Ray: yea hes very peaceful now.
Katie: yea hes in a stress free place.
Mary: ummm yall are acting weird. but im not even gone sweat it. im just happy my baby is ok I cant wait to see him and hold him in my arms.
Aaliyah: mary listen to me sweetheart... eran is gone.
Mary: duh I know you just told me that.
Roc: nooo mary I don't think you understand us..... eran is gone for good. his time was cut short. god called him back home.
the room sat quiet for a whole 5 minutes. we wanted to give mary some time to collect her thoughts.
mary: please tell me this is a joke. and that you lying. please just please tell me that my baby is not dead.
marys heart beat started increasing. I only know that because of the monitor. those lines were going out of control.
Briana: mary calm down please. I know its hard for you. were all devastated. but you have to breath. please calm down.
marys heart beat got even faster and her breaths started getting light.
Tatiana: mary breath!
roc ran out of the room to get the doctors.
Mary: tell diggy I love him and that im sorry for everything.
next thing I know the lines on the monitor slowed down then they suddenly stopped. the doctors ran into the room pushing us out. but by the looks of her lifeless body I could tell it was too late.
-mean while-
Diggy(pov): I finally opened my eyes from a long sleep. and let me tell you that was a very peaceful sleep. well now im looking around the room trying to make out where I am. and I realized I was in the hospital room and it all came back to me the crash the argument. everything. my heart dropped to my stomach at the though of my family being hurt. I sat up a little bit on my hospital bed. and my mom and my sister came up to the hospital bed. I was soo happy to see them its been a while.
Diggy: hey yall
I said with a smile she looked at me then started crying a river.
Diggy: ma why are you crying? please don't be sad.
a smiled then formed on my mothers face.
Mrs.simmons : baby these are tears of joy.
Diggy: great... you know I miss yall.
my mom and my sisters embraced me in a huge bare hug and it felt amazing till my hip started hurting I winced in pain then they released me.
Angela: how did this happen bro?
Diggy: ill explain it all later but for now where is mary?
Vanessa: shes in the other room.
Diggy: is she ok?
Angela : yea bri and all of them went to go check on her a few minutes ago.
diggy: that's great!!. im glad shes ok
they all giggled at my excitement.
I took a deep breath and prepared my self to ask the question I was trying to avoid. "so hows eran?" I was honestly afraid to know the answer.
Mrs.simmons: baby theres something we need to tell you......
the room got quiet.
diggy: ma tell me im sure whatever it is I can handle it....did eran get hurt?
mrs.simmons: honey... eran didn't make it.
Diggy: that can't be true. the car didn't even crash it just jerked forward.
Angela: the doctor said that somehow the baby wasn't strapped into his seat belt.
once I heard those words I swear my heart stopped beating for a moment. this is all my fault every thing its all my fault. if I would have just gave up my music career and focused on our marriage me and mary wouldn't have never been having problems and our relationship wouldn't have be falling apart and we wouldn't have been arguing that day in the car. I was so stupid for pushing down on the pedal what the fuck was I thinking. the two people that cared about the most was in that car and I put them in danger. and most importantly its my fault for not buckling eran in. I swear I thought mary heard me. now iv lost my one and only son he meant the world to me. this is all just my fault. fuck my life. next thing I know tears started streaming down my face. I haven't cried in a long time. but im only human and I can only take so much. I just wanna know why me? what have I done to deserve this?. I already lost Erica. now my son.im a very spiritual person I believe in the lord I even go to church from time to time. so why is he punishing me like this. someone please just tell me what have I done.
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i know this is a short chapter but bare with me I had a serious case of writers block.
don't think im trying to kill off every one because that's not the case I just felt I needed to put this in there. I wanted to do something different. anyways I hoped you enjoyed :) R.I.P mary you will always be missed. oh and let me get something clear. diggy does not know about Mary's death yet.
what have i done to deserve this?
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