thoughts in the galaxy

THE UNTOLD STORY

i was with someone else when you first met me
that was a mistake that we both chose not to see
we both broke someone's heart just to be happy
it was both our choice to try and alter destiny

but then fate had a totally different plan
i held on so tight but you let go of my hand

was i the only one to blame because i was stupid?
or were you thinking you're the only one who was wounded?
was it my fault that we didn't make it through?
or were you afraid to admit that it was your fault too?

they all knew that i committed the first offence
so they thought i didn't have the right to mourn
but you were already fucking my "friend"
while i was still crying behind the bathroom door

it was a night in November when i went to our favorite coffee shop
i didn't manage to get near but i saw you in there laughing
it wasn't long until i realized that he was right there too sitting on my spot
so i turned around and walked away as if it was nothing

i admit to breaking your heart right in front of you
but was i responsible for the knife in my back too?

i couldn't take the sight of you two together
the pain cut through my flesh and bones
but then in time it felt better and better
it's just one of the things that i've outgrown

i got to know you when you weren't in love with me
you are a stranger to me now but i have memories of being with you
i reached a totally different level of maturity
i got to know myself better and for that i want to thank you

thank you for not responding when i desperately called out for you
thank you for letting me go before i was ready to free you
thank you for breaking my heart in so many ways
thank you for leaving when i begged you to stay

the moment you made me realize that i didn't deserve to be loved by you
it was the same moment that i knew that i was capable of loving myself too