forever? | sunghoon

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" i-i should end my life now. why do I hesitate to just put my head inside this luring circle? "

i mean no one like me, right? why do I hesitate? what makes me hesitate?

no– it's not about that boy right?

i do love him–no. i don't love him.

someone will confessing to him, today.

i should've ended my life now.

*sigh*

i get down from the chair and lay on the dirty floor. i mean– i do have a house but sometimes weird things make you feel alive.

i look at my phone and noticed 99+ miss called by Jay.

jay, park jonseong, 18. from Seattle.

rich rich and an annoying chatterbox. he's everyone crush. everyone in school got simp by him. no matter teachers or students, he always got the charm for making everyone fall in love with him.

but he is cold duh. he treats everyone like rubbish, yet still everyone got simp on him. the power money holds is just *chef kiss*

not gonna lie but he's actually a softie, his soft side just for one and only, Yang Jungwon. ( maybe a little bit just for me and his other friends? )

he buys expensive things for jungwon literally almost every week. jungwon is living in everyone dreams lol. everyone is jealous by him. he got protection 24/7 by a spy that jay hired.

once, jay sasaengs decided to throw eggs at jungwon and luckily, he saw the incident and protect jungwon immediately. that's why jay decided to hired a spy.

gosh, jay is a sweet person. sweet as dalgona, that's how he describe himself lol.

oh! my phone is ringing again, and ofc it was Jay.

" hel– "

" where the fuck did you go?! "

i told ya he is a softie.

" i don't even finish my hello, you dumbass.
i'm okay here, don't worry
about me. "

" you need to come here, dude!
i got a hot gossip duh!
heeseung hyung is confessing
to jake, bro! "

i know I shouldn't answer his call,

all I get is just,

a heartbroken.

" haha, yeah. good for jake. tell him
i said congrats. "

" bro!bro! he got rejected bro!
in front of hundreds people yo!
poor heeseung hyung... "

there's blooming feelings inside my heart right now.
my prays work! but still, poor heeseung hyung ;)

" is heeseung hyung okay?
did he cries? "

" he kneeling down, begging
for jake love's.
he looks pathetic,
i should stop him now. "

you feel what I feel now. you should be grateful because he agreed to date you, not like me me who he ignored all the time.

" yeah, good for him. "

" what did you say? "