This is my first story, hopefully someone out there will like it (:
I looked out the window as the plane started to take off. I usually hated the feeling I got in my stomach as the plane started to float through the air but today I didn't care, I barely felt it, my mind was on other things. In no time we were high up in the sky and I could barely make out the city below. I leaned back in my seat as I closed my eyes. Was I sure this was what I wanted? No, the answer was plain and simple. I was actually kind of dreading this but there was no way that I was staying in Arizona. Mom said that I could come back whenever I wanted so it was still not too late but it didn't really matter. I wasn't coming back, not for a while at least.
"Are you positive Ellie? You're completely sure that you want to move to with your father? I mean this never even occurred to you and if it did the thought would have been unimaginable” Mom said, her young face wearing an expression of concern and curiosity. I looked a lot like Mom, we both had the same nose and mouth and our personalities were a lot alike. We could easily get along as friends. She was a lot stronger than me though, and if she was in my position she would not be running away.
“I’m sure” I replied, forcing a smile. My parents had divorced when I was 12 and Dad had moved away to Charlottesville, Virginia. He had wanted me to move with him but I had said no, not because I loved Mom more, but because Arizona had been what I’d known and I was at that age when a girl needs her mom more.
“If it’s what you really want then I can’t stop you…If it has to do with that boy though-“
“Mom! Please, it has nothing to do with that boy” I interrupted, my voice high. I saw the shocked look on her face, took a deep breathe and continued “I just…well right now a little bit of Charlottesville is all I need” I finished with a smile.
She looked at me, her expression careful, “Well I just wanted to say that if it has to do with that boy then I’m sure you can fix whatever happened. There is no reason for you to leave.”
I sighed “If it had to do with him I wouldn’t be leaving. I’m doing this for me.” I lied, “I mean UVA is so close to Dad’s and it’s a great University. It would be great to go there”
“We have ASU here, there’s no need for you to move that far away” she replied.
“Mom I already made up my mind”
“I know, I just thought I might as well give it a shot” She smiled, her eyes sad.
Not long after that she drove me to the airport where I tried to be strong during a very painful goodbye, my mind going back to the phone call I had gotten earlier.
I blinked back tears. Oh, how I was going to miss Mom. She meant the world to me. How could I leave her because of him? I took a deep breath and sighed. She was going to be fine without me, I was sure of it but I was still going to miss her as much as she was going to miss me. I was going to miss my room. I was going to my friends. I was going to miss school, as crazy as that may seem. I was going to miss walking through Downtown Scottsdale, the sun’s rays hitting my exposed skin. I loved wearing shorts, a tank top and some sandals as I strolled through the streets window shopping and looking at the many art exhibits. I was going to miss going to Fashion Square with Jessica and Maria, acting like lunatics. I was going to miss swimming on the extremely hot days and soaking up the cold water until my skin was too wrinkly for comfort. I was going to miss Arizona and my life in it…but most of all I was going to miss him, and with that slip I went through everything again in my mind and when I was done I couldn’t hold the tears anymore and I cried.
I hadn’t wanted to let the pain out at home because I knew Mom wouldn’t let me move to Charlottesville if she knew the reason I wanted to move so badly was him and I needed to get out of Arizona as soon as possible. Now, on the airplane I let it all out, it hit me all at once and I couldn’t keep the pain inside anymore. For a while I forgot I was on the plane but then the person next to me moved uncomfortably and I quickly brushed the tears away and looked out the window next to me. As I moved further away from home I could feel relieve but also a new type of hurt. It took forever for the plane to land.
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Letting Go
RomanceEllie moves away from home to Virginia, trying to leave behind her past. There she meets Ethan and he starts putting her together again. What neither of them realize is that the past in not willing to be left behind.