The Frendzation Program

Distanced

I wouldn't have gotten to know Freddy and actually see him as a great friend that I loved to hangout with! But because he saw me looking at the football team picture on the first day of school and talked to me, now all this has happened!!

I was mad...mad at Freddy. I don't know why but for the first time I was actually really angry.

Bella came on Friday last week, I told her everything that had happened as she promised to not leave me alone until I told everything. True to her word, she actually slept over in my house for two nights until I finally decided to tell her.

After I told her everything, including me saying I didn't want anything to do with Freddy again, she told me and I qoute, "Lia dear, you're not mad at Freddy, you're not even angry at him. You're mad at the fact that circumstances doesn't allow you to be friends with him."

Either she was right or not, it didn't matter because I was no more talking to him and we weren't even friends anymore.

And even though I didn't want to admit it, it stung and hurt.

But moving on was what I wanted to do now.

I freshened up after doing a bit of reading and decided to go and pay Molly a visit.

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"Lia, hey, how are you?" Brenda asked once she saw me walk through the entrance of the shelter.

I could see there was this odd look on her face that wasn't normally there, she was hiding sadness.

"I'm alright... how's Molly?"

She sighs, and takes a moment before she  speaks again, "I'm not going to lie to you Lia, but she's not doing so well. The doctor is coming to check up on her later today though, hopefully she'll be well."

"Is it okay if I can see her?"

"Sure, but please be careful with her." She answered.

One thing that was for sure was that I was always careful with Molly and Brenda knew that. The fact that Brenda was telling me to be careful only meant that Molly was definitely not doing well, and I needed to take extra caution.

I went to her cage and I felt my heart sank at the state of Molly, she definitely looked weaker, than she did a few days ago. She also lost more weight.

She was asleep.

"Hey, Molly...Molly dear." I gently whispered. I tried to hold my voice from breaking, I didn't like seeing her that way.

She soon opened her eyes and barked when she saw me. It was light, weak, but there was joy in it, and I knew she was happy to see me.  Even though she was in really bad shape, she could still show joy at the little things, she was strong.

I very carefully and lightly placed my hand on her fur, as if I was touching something fragile. I slowly pat her.

"I love you Molly, you're going to be fine, I'm here."

She rubbed her head on my arm in response, letting me know that she appreciates me.

After sometime I decided that it was time for her to rest, and I stood up to leave.

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I was back at home and I had just got off from a call with Nathan. He asked if we could meet tomorrow for our study session amd I agreed. We would be meeting later in the day.

When I had dropped the phone call I heard  a knock on my door.

"Darling, can I come in?"

"Yes mom" I replied.

She opened the door and walked into my room, she sat at the foot of my bed where my legs were. I was seated in my bed with blanket covering my legs , going through some biology notes.

My mom sat there for a moment not saying anything and me not also in the mood to talk, just kept on flipping through the pages of my book.

My mom put her hand out infront of me and closed the book, causing me to look at her.

"Dear, it's now time for us to talk... or should I say, it's time for you to talk?"

"Talk about what, I'm just hear doing me work, there's nothing to talk about." I defended.

"You know exactly what I'm talking about. I need you to speak out your feelings to me , what's going on in that mind of yours? How are you coping with the new way of schooling, how's Freddy...?"

The last question took me off guard.

"Mom..." I started trying to avoid the conversation.

"Lia, I'll let you know that I'm not leaving this room until you talk to me."she stated firmly.

I sigh...am I really going to go through this again... expressing my thoughts and feelings...I'm not ready to go through the crying process again.

I'll just put this in the briefest way I can.

"Mom...if I should be honest...I'm not all that bad, I've just...I've just not really liked what's been happening these past few days. I...I don't what I --" and here comes the tears.

"It's okay dear" my mom pat my leg for a way for me to go on.

" I don't know what I did to Kylie that caused her to hate me the way she does, why she decided to bully me. I mean I actually thought we could be friends...and then now I'm here in the house, home schooling. Not that it's a bad thing, it's just that the fact that I...I couldn't stand up for myself, I was such a low confidence coward --"

"No Lia , don't say that."

"No mom, please let me speak. I was a coward and I am a coward! I mean look I literally stopped going to school because I couldn't stand up for myself! And now I'm even inconveniencing Nathan, who's been so nice to come and help with my school work. And then there's Molly...Molly who's not feeling well and I don't know how to feel or think, and I just feel like urghh..." I put my hands over my face to stop me from crying.

"Aww dear, it's okay, please take it easy with yourself."she shifts closer to me so that she's now rubbing my back.

I remove my hands from my face, "Mom, I'm alright, I'm okay and I just need to go back to my reading and--" I say with a sniffle trying to end the conversation but she cut me off.

"What about Freddy?"

I looked to the side, some kind of look of anger evident on my face.

"What about him?" I quickly replied.

"Lia..."

"Mom I don't want to talk about him, okay! He's the reason for most of this mess. He just had to come into my life and cause all this and...and I'm way out of his league, he should have just stopped coming to the house the moment he found out that I was a weird, nerdy geek. But now look what has happened an--"

"You miss him, don't you?" My mom cuts me off, and at that statement whatever was holding back my tears couldn't stop them. I hugged my mom and cried onto her shoulder.

I finally gave in.

"I miss him so much mom."

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