Im Not Gross....Im Just Trying

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Warnings: Transphobia, implied/mentioned dysphoria, implied abuse, unsafe binding, misgendering, short update

The video above is where I got the idea! Also all my trans friends, please be careful with your binders, be safe everybody!!   (No ships)

Also this is the first time I've ever written anything trans, so correct me if I get something wrong!

Tommy POV

He couldnt do it.

His ribs ached, and every breathe sent a sharp pain up his body.

Hed has his binder on for over 2 days now, and he physically couldn't move.

Any movements pained him to much. He had tears spilling down his cheeks and his bottom lip wobbled.

Usually, sense him and fundy had discussed how long theyd wear their binders at the longest, hed only keep it on during the day and take it off at nights, and even having days whered he keep em off completely just to give his body a break.

However, in exile. Where Dream visited everyday giving him no chance to give himself breaks, he was forced to keep them on. Dream had no idea he was trans.

Only Wilbur, Niki, Fundy, Tubbo, Quackity, Eret, and Ranboo knew. All agreed not to say a word, even though he dislikes Eret and they once worked with Dream, theyd said nothing.

Biting his lip, stopping himself from making any sounds, he forced his arms behind him, unclipping the damn thing and basically deflating in relief.

He threw the thing aside, hed clean it later.

Hed need to keep his binder off for a day or two and then go back to his normal routine with the thing. He only had the one as his others were at home. The home he wasnt aloud in.

He rummaged in a small bag he had Ghostbur bring him, with things hed needs a trans boy. He hid it well from Dream, and the man didnt know yet.

He put on a just sone stupid sports bra, a T-shirt, and a big hoodie he had. Thankfully he had no mirrors, so he should be fine. He just had to make a it a few days alone.

Usually when he wasnt feeling like he would be able to make it up in the morning, it like he wasnt even a real man/boy in the first place, his best friend, Tubbo, or his nephew, Fundy, would come and help him out. However, Tubbo has exiled him from the country they all built together, and nobody was aloud to visit him.

Hed have to figure out a way to keep Dream from knowing. He knew Dream wasnt blind so how would he not notice the bumps on his chest. His voice, thankfully, had sounded like a really young boy sense he was around 7 so his voice never bothered him too too much. Maybe a bit, but he always had his family to remind him he was loved....but they weren't here, were they?

Hes alone.

Hed figure it out later.

Hes tired, and the huge relief he had on his upper body/chest made him even more exhausted as he was more comfortable.

Hed figure it all out in the morning.....

Some other time when Dream appeared

For one of the first times in a good few days, he woke up actually kinda comfortable. Not any of the sharp or aching pains in his chest. Before hed fully woken up, he felt comfy, despite the the rocks under his sleeping bag. Before he realized his binder was off and he felt physically comfortable, his brain clouded by sleep and dreams.

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