It was a Christmas family reunion/gatherings and out of nowhere she randomly found herself craving for a sweet treat at the middle of the party, perhaps a candy? so she asked her parents if she could buy some from the nearest small shop outside, to buy the satisfaction she needed.
Her parents weren't exactly strict on her that day so they agreed but told her to bring someone to keep her safe and they suggested her special someone, her crush maybe?
That time, her parents had no clue that she liked this specific person, but both of them were extremely close that time, that's why her parents chose him to go with her.
He happily agreed when she asked him politely because she was younger than him.
They went outside and began to walk at the side, with her crush on her right side.
It was a cold windy night when they went outside, The lights from the streets were slightly dim but it was glistening and reflecting through their eyes while the both of them were filled with such awkwardness. She can practically feel it's breeze brush through her flesh, giving her subtle shivers, specifically her arms.
Out of nowhere, her crush went to her left and felt his hand interlocking with hers, probably he wanted to protect her, right?
Her mind immediately went blank and clouded with bunch of thoughts and reactions, she was shocked and confused when he held her hand, it was ridiculously random, she didn't expected that action from him, she admitted to herself she was flustered by it.
That's when he cut off the silence between them and spoke.
"Do you have a crush on me?"
He asked softly but sincerely, he turn his head to look at her, waiting and anticipating for her answer.
"No, no I don't, why did you asked kuya?"
She turn her head to look at him aswell, making intense eye contact between them, fortunately she managed to keep her cool down, hell, she didn't even want to admit it!
But one thing's for sure, and that is...
She regretted it so much that she wasted her whole 8 years reminiscing it.
After she finished her sentence, he held her hand tighter than ever, it made her more flustered and sensed joy within her.
She tortured herself by questioning herself for god knows how many counts.
She spent hours,days, and even years about that same thing because she couldn't moved on, she was too attached and loved him dearly that time. She'd tell herself
"What if, I admitted that I like him? will it change anything?"
Beacause he was the first person ever who made her heart so full with happiness and joy
For her, It feels like she's in her own fantasy dream that she always wanted as a child.
