evanna: our love

chapter 49

Eva's pov:

i started crying, i tried to stay silent but i let out a little sound

i could see anna looking at my sadly but she didn't say anything

that made me cry more, it wasn't very hard to keep my cries silent, i did that a lot growing up

i looked out the window watching all the trees go by quickly

i watched how the clouds changed

anna turned on the radio and the song "as the world caves in" was playing

i've never heard this song on the radio, it was like a sign

she turned it up to where you could feel the music through the car

we didn't sing like we used we just listened in silence

quietly appreciating our time together

i looked at anna briefly and saw that she was crying too, a lot less than me but there were still tears

we got to my house and just sat listening to the rest of the song

Anna's pov:

silence, it's so powerful

it can mean anything

i turned off the car and looked at eva, she didn't look at me she just got out

i stayed in the car, it was off, it was quieter than ever

i could hear myself breathing

i checked the time, i was sitting in there for 20 minutes

eva was already inside

i got out and went inside too

i made me and eva sandwiches and grabbed some red bulls

i walked up the stairs trying not to drop anything

i knocked on her door and heard something shut loudly

i came in and set the food down

she was watching your lie in april but she wasn't on her bed

i went to her bathroom and she was washing her face

Eva's pov:

i didn't feel good, mentally

i felt like i was drowning and there was no way out, i'm scared

i went to the bathroom and started looking for advil

instead i found my moms adderall, i forgot it was in here

i used to be heavily addicted to pills, before i moved here i'd take any pills i could find

i took adderall the most

part of the reason me and my mom moved was because of my addiction, she thought moving away from bad influences would help me get better

i promised myself that i wouldn't go down that hole again

i guess i put these in here just in case, almost like i wanted to fall back into that hole

i poured 3 into my hand and swallowed them

someone knocked at the door so i quickly closed the cabinet and washed my face

it was just anna

"i made food if your hungry" she said

i smiled and walked past her

i haven't taken adderall in so long, i forgot what it felt like

i don't know why i took them, i didn't even think about it i just did