If only you noticed

I wont let go

Im so broken & lost.. i dont what to think or feel anymore .. i cant accept it.. i dont know how to, especially when its what i want most .. i have to let go & forget.. how do i stop the memories from stabbing each time i think.. how do i accept mistakes made that built the walls up, walls that would take alot of work and hope to take down.. how do i accept knowing what i want , wants a part of me , but theres complications. How do i accept & let go.. when i dove in & put forth my heart, for it to be broken more than ever before, something so special yet so destructive , that it gave one option only , let go. My mind, body and soul feels this pain physically, while the one i want is blinded by heartlessness.. i part ways or have to say goodbye, its hard enough to breath and neither option mentions you staying. My emotions flow like waterfalls, while the heart of the one i want is covered in stone.. not allowing possibility or compromise to make right what was unintentionally wronged. Their heart acts with no emotion while mine flows of emotion and cant bare it, just thinking of the thought of you gone & unable to speak with you.. makes me wish that i could turn back time. With emotion comes beauty & with beauty comes love, while you run desperately & allow in the consumption of darkness.. Im afraid by the time you realise what you done & what you could of had, will only be but a memory you where to naive to hold onto. I mentioned id wait.. but One can only wait so long, how long untill they'll realise that theres also one who has a heart that flows like a waterfall, no walls will be up & will be no need for compromise.. and who this time begs to stay. Because in the end of my being not worthy, the once missing piece that was found within you, can be found with someone else, with someone worthy to make what was once missing and uncompleted, finally be whole.