Pen - pen: Disarm my Pain

FLOWERS (2)

This maybe cruicial,
This maybe good,
It makes my heart melted,
A bread and butter for food,
Till the last laughter comes,
And this dying eyes shut,
For it only makes me nervous,
Because it was dark, and hot

I won't regret knowing you,
for you gives me strength,
I won't hate you,
For I loved you once,
Breaking your heart isn't that start of hating people in every distance,
You should give your heart a rest nd chance,

Flowers may look so nice in my coffin,
But send me one right now,
For I can't accept those and appreciate them when I am asleep,
And it will be such garbage after it,

I will cherish your sweet words right now,
Can you send one for me?,
Because I hate testimonies about me,
For it only ruins the friendship and memories we had,
That is simply just for you and me,

I never felt so uncomfortable before,
Even drinking some coffee makes me so nervous about things,
Is it necessary to stare for 5 minutes while drinking coffee?,
Thinking about things I did after my insanities?,

This is a new level of insecurity in me,
After those physical and mental thoughts about myself,
In learned that everybody can be unique as they wanted to,
But labels in society makes me different from you,

I can't blame the society for building my character,
For the saying says "Majority Wins",
I'd like to congratulate myself from being merely clean,
That my parents teached me manners,
That I carry as a teen,

I can't talk about my thoughts here,
For this is my reverie,
This is your reverie,
And I am your hist here,

Tell me,
Are you still reading this?,
It is so long to finish, but,
I wish you could read this,
Are you lonely?,
I am here, don't worry,

The title is way lost than the body,
Like the person who has the title but never speaks in to his acts,
You can be an entitled person,
But the acts can be different,

Even flowers in same kind have their own different color,
Like yourself who possess some kind of strength in you,
Some can be decieved,
But only those who work hard so well was the only one who truly achieved.