My Haven in Cebu | 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲𝘁𝗲𝗱

Chapter Twenty One

Chapter 21

"Shot," I said. I have no choice. I don’t want to do dare yet.

"Ma’am! Tsk.. tsk.. I forgot to say, kapag pala shot ang pinili may itatanong muna kami bago mo inumin."

"What? Ang daya!"

She said earlier na iinom lang wala naman siyang sinabing may itatanong muna. What’s the difference? Para rin namang truth or dare, pinalitan lang ng shot. Kapag talaga si Mikay, ‘wag ng umasahang titino pa.

"Okay dahil shot ang pinili mo so ito ang tanong mo... How does it feel to be CJ’s girl?"

I smiled. "I feel like someone save me."

Yes, he’s my saviour from my chaotic life. Sobrang gulo ng buhay ko at nung dumating siya ay nakalimutan kong may problema ako. Sobrang dami akong tanong sa isip ko na hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin nasasagot.

Why did I saw my mother at the hospital kung saan nakataray ang daddy ni Ate Ann? Why do I feel like Ate’s hiding something to me? Why do I feel like I’m not completed?

I got at my senses when I felt some hand squeezing my hand.

"Hey love, you okay? Lalim yata ng iniisip mo?"

"Huh?" Luminga ako only to find out na wala na ang iba at lumipat na sa ibang pwesto.

"The game’s done. Ang lalim yata ng iniisip mo at ‘di mo napansin na tinigil na nila since it’s boring daw,"

That explains why kami na lang ang narito. "I’m ready." I sighed. It’s about time to share.

Kumunot ang noo niya at kalauna’y nawala. Nakuha niya ang ibig kong sabihin.

"Is it okay with you? I won’t force you if you can’t still open up. We have all the time in this world. I can wait."

I shook my head. "No. I can’t be truly free if I won’t face this. I love you that’s why I want to share this with you. I want to tell you what’s the reason behind this scars."

He squeezed my hand. "It’s your decision and I will just be with you."

Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago nagsimula. "Back when I was still a child, Papa ko palaging galit sa akin. Nagtataka nga ako noon eh, sa aming magkapatid sa akin lang siya palaging galit. At first it was just hurtful and harsh words. Palagi niya akong minumura,"

Mapait akong ngumiti nang naalala ang nakaraan. Nakaarang ayoko ng balikan pa.

"The cursing eventually turned to physically hurtings. Pinagpapalo niya ako, binubugbog. Kahit kasalanan ng kapatid ko ipinapasa sa akin." My tears started to fall.

"Hush love, stop it. You can’t still take it." Pinahiran niya ang luha ko.

Umiling ako. "I can handle, don’t worry. " So I continued. "That continued until I turned fifteen..." Nanginginig ang kamay ko. Pumikit ako ng mariin. "H-he t-tried to touch me, h-he tried to raped me." Napahagulhol ako at yumakap sa kanya.

My father tried to touch me. He tried to raped me and that brought me a trauma. Bagay na gustong gusto ko ng kalimutan pero paulit ulit kong napapanaginipan.