With Love, Ryan (Shattered#1)

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"He's inside. Get done with your weeping so all of us can move on." He said in a bored voice.

Making me go red in face.

How the hell did he know I was trying to push down the golf ball stuck in my throat? That could erupt any moment. .

"Eat dung, Malfoy!"

He rolled his eyes and I had it on the tip of my tongue. .

Can you accompany me please?

But I had to be brave and . .this was the man I had given my heart to. I needed to fill my heart with him. Eat his words and make memories . . together.

Squaring my shoulders, I walked towards the room—the room we had kissed and laughed . .

Don't you dare cry!

"Good luck, Eleanor."

Why did it feel like he was mocking me?

Placing my hand on the door, I looked over my shoulder. .at the couple watching me anxiously.

Daisy gave me a thumbs up.

Dean just stared.

Taking in a deep breath, I pushed the door open and as soon as I stepped in, I shut the door.

The familiar room made me nostalgic.

His scent got to me from everywhere. .

Slowly, I turned at him. .and he was on the bed. .his hands gripped the edges of the bed while his eyes were downcast.

His appearance disheveled and forlorn. .

Something in me snapped.

"Ryan. .," I called him out.

And he glanced at me.

Blue eyes reflected nothing but the same emotion my eyes held.

Love.

Pure, raw love.

With steady steps, I walked towards him . .and this time I didn't stop the tears . .I let them out so he could see how much I had missed him. .us.

I kneeled down in front of him, my knees hitting the floor . .my hands covering his . . making him loosen up his hold on the bed and taking his hands up to cup my face.

His touch always calmed me. Cured me.

He looked on edge.

So strung out.

Tight.

"Ryan, talk to me." I said , looking up at him while he looked down at me.

"Eleanor. .," He rasped. As if he hadn't talk in days.

"Why didn't you come to me?" I couldn't help but voice the disappointment. .his eyes followed the tracks of my tears.

"How could I? . .after what happened. .how could I?" He breathed out.

"Listen to me for the very last time, I don't care about your past. I met this. Ryan not the . .other one. I believe you can never cause anyone any harm and. .if I had been on your place, I would have done something worse like chopping his body—,"

He covered my mouth gently, making me stop.

"Don't. Don't even assume it." He stated in his most no nonsense voice.

And then he moved his hand away . . tucking his index finger under my chin. . angling my face up.

"You're my home, remember?" I whispered.

"As long as you want me, Eleanor. I can be your home , your castle , your hut. . anything. As long as you want." He smiled and his eyes glossed over.

I laughed in a mad way.

Clutching at his hand.

"Your shitty brother is outside." I tried to joke amid of wiping my eyes.

"I know. We had a talk last night and . .it's all about baby steps."

"He never said anything about anything!" I couldn't help but feel betrayed.

I thought we had some kind of a bond here. .

"Eleanor, look at me," he said in that silky smooth voice I fell for ," you and Dean, you two are the most important people on this planet for me. And I realized , I can't keep up with my past anymore. I don't want to talk about it. I don't want you two to talk about it or I won't be able to get over it. And. .this is me, Eleanor. With all my ugly truths . .this is me. Will you accept me as I'm? " He smiled , leaning down. . pressing his forehead against mine.

"Of course I do! I love you ,Ryan! I love how you tackle me! You got me when no one did. I know it deep in my bones, I would choose no one but you. Over and over again —,"

He didn't let me finish.

Ryan pressed his mouth against mine, not an actual kiss but skin to skin contact. .and his lips moved against mine in a gentle whisper.

"I'll love you, Eleanor. Till the stars falls .Till the moon shatters."

×××××××××××The End×××××××××

A/ N

What an emotional rollercoaster coaster 😩

It's the end for Ryan and Dean's tumultuous relationship. Broken relationships don't get fixed in a jiffy. It takes time and still you can't be as close as you used to be because the mistrust is there in between.

I pray no one gets through what they did. It is truly shattering to see your loved one ignoring your existence and then you grow up with the trauma. Bottle it up.

I'm glad I put it out through Dean. Channeled my trauma.

Anyways, love you guys for being there 🌸🌸

NOTE:

As you all know I have been writing back to back, started from The Curious Case Of Dennis and ended on Ryan. I desperately need a mini break to read, chillax, read couple of books. I need to figure out what I want next.

I'll be off on vacation for at least ten days to rewind and . .let my hair down.

See you with another chunk of bad boy 😏

Yours, Rome 💕💕