My vent book

Lonely

I just woke up from a dream, but I don't know if it was a dream or a nightmare. I was at my friends house when my whole volleyball team came over and started talking. Even though I was in the same room with them, no one acknowledged me.
I've always been the quiet one in the group, so I haven't been able to express myself and that sometimes drives me CRAZY!!
My friends are nice but I never actually feel like I'm part of the group or I'm always included. I don't know if they forgot about me, or they think I'd rather do my own thing, but either way I feel really lonely....
I honestly thought this shouldn't be able to bother me, but it's grown to be very annoying.
I found myself recently not wanting to talk to other people at school. And I started sitting by myself at recess and lunch.
And no, I'm not trying to feel sorry for myself. I just don't want to socialize so I have to deal with that crap again.