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crying over a desk lamp

and on today's adventures of kelly in college, I cry over my desk lamp not working.

THIS IS THE STUPIDEST THING I COULD'VE CRIED OVER AM I OKAY

so in my dorm there are these stupid fluorescent lights and I hate them so I turned on my desk lamp and turned off those lights and it was SO nice and then I turned off my lamp for a second and then turned it back on and it started flickering and wasn't as bright.

I tried multiple outlets and it was doing the same thing so then I texted my mom and she was like "oh lol just use it for now" and I was like "no flickering lights are annoying I'm not going to use it" and then she said "then put it into your closet we can get a new one the next time you come home"

THE NEXT TIME I COME HOME IS IN OCTOBER. I CANNOT GO WITHOUT A DESK LAMP THAT LONG

so yeah then I started crying and I'm doing my stat homework rn and my roommate and some of our friends came back to see me CRYING ABOUT A DESK LAMP

they asked me if I was okay and yk that makes everything worse and when I'm crying I can't talk or else I'll cry more so I said like two words and tried to pull myself together but it didn't work

I think going home this weekend really fucked me up bc I was doing so well welcome week and my first week of classes but now I just want to go home again

I don't think it helped that I had the worst salad of my life from the dining hall today

anyways yeah I'm gonna try and finish my work and probably cry some more even though my roommate is here

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