Introverts - mattheo riddle

chapter 4:

The day went by very quickly, classes seemed like they lasted seconds, and Mattheo and I spent most of the day together. Although neither of us were social people, we enjoyed each other's company. Mattheo was different than everyone else. It was like he understood it all, all the feelings inside of me and all the thoughts going through my head. And I understood him too. I knew when he got nervous, I knew when he was excited, I just felt like I knew him already, even after just spending a day together it felt like we had known each other for years.

At the end of our last class, I took Mattheo to his dorm. "This is your dorm" -Y/N "Pretty cool" - Mattheo replied" I'm gonna go to the library to study, when your done unpacking you could join me if you want?" I said in a nervous tone, I had never really asked anyone to "hang out" with me at the library. "Sounds good" - Mattheo replied . I waved goodbye and went to my dorm to get my books so I could study in the library.

I felt excited for some reason. I didn't understand why, I mean I had never really felt this way about anything. And that's when I realized it. I wasn't excited to go to the library, I was excited to see Mattheo because I had a crush on him. I didn't realize it at first but when I really thought deeply into how I was feeling, I knew what it was. This was bad, I didn't want to have a crush on him, I mean I had only known him for a day and he probably just thinks I'm some weird loner who has no friends and likes going to the library for fun. I sat in my room for the rest of the day, I was annoyed at myself for feeling this way. "I just need to forget about him" "I showed him around school and went to class with him, he probably wants to make some friends and have crazy fun times with them. And I shouldn't interrupt him," I repeated this over and over again until I decided to let it go, he needs to make friends and all I was to him was a tour guide. I should probably give him space. The conversations were fun but that was just small talk. It's back to being alone again.