MaBhengu

Chapter 11

Busani:ubuyaphi ngaleskathi(where are you coming from at this time)

Me:ohh you're still awake

Him:I asked you a question Buseka don't piss me off

Me:I was having dinner with a friend

Him: which one because I know it's not Ndalo because I called her

Me:you wouldn't know him

Him:him? So it's a man Buseka you come home late at night and you tell me with a man

He said slightly raising his voice

Me:it's a friend Busani ufuna ndithini voetsek ke because I had a long day and you're interrogating me

And by then I was shouting at him too and he was so close to me.....I felt a sting on my left cheek he slapped tears started falling

Me:Busani you slapped

Busani:yes I did..so?? ungidelela kwam ubuya mawuthanda ubusy namanye amadoda ngathi uyazilibala ukuthi ushadile

Me:Busani it was just dinner

He held me by my neck

Him:ungincisha ucantsi something you should be giving me ulala naye lomfana ubunaye

I'm so scared right I've never seen him this pissed and I'm crying so historically

Me:Busani please I'm sorry...please let me go

Him:yabona namhlanje uzonginika lento kudala ngiyifuna asambe

He pushes me up the stairs....is he going to force himself on me??god please help me....we get to his room he drips of all the clothes I had on even the undergarments

Me:Busani please don't do this

Him:get not the bed,lay on your back and open your legs

Me:Busani no

He slaps me again

Him:ngiqed'ukthini kuwena manje marniie

I get on the bed and lay on my back and  open my legs why do my parents hate me so much he strips and gets on top of me and starts kissing me so deep I don't respond until he starts rubbing my clit I hate how my body is betraying me he starts kissing my neck and sucking on it

Me:ndiyakucela Busani dont do this

Him:shhhhh....I'll be gentle don't worry

He always says he's going to be gentle but ends up doing the opposite he fucked me so hard I was begging him to stop but my pleas fell on deaf ears.....so like I got raped by my 'husband's and he hit me he has broken me I give up

Now we are in the bathtub and my back is facing him him and my back is on his chest I'm so numb and I'm crying

Him:stop crying we are husband and wife we should be doing this....don't you ever come back the time you did today are we clear??

I nod

Me:Busani you forced yourself on me I didn't want to have sex with you I told you that you have a girlfriend I don't even know if you use protection with her or not but you just fucked me raw I don't want any disease Busani at the beginning I was willing to give this marriage a chance and maybe eventually fall in love with you but you have done nothing but disrespect me and humiliate me every chance you get and you told you have a girlfriend I accepted that and gave you your space I just went to have a meal with a friend someone I now consider my friend and big brother because in this one night he has helped me deal with everything that happened to me since we got married since Ndalo and my brothers have been distant and you hit me and force yourself on I hope you are happy Busani...

He keeps quiet for like an hour I dont know if he is thinking or what....I need to get out of this bathtub the water is getting cold

Me:let's dry up the water is getting cold

We get out dry up and lotion up and we are using his stuff mine are in my room and he wants me to sleep in his room....we get into bed and he cuddles me

Him:Yamihle Buseka Bhengu I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you especially tonight I think I'm falling for you but I didn't want to move on it and it was because I have a girlfriend but ever since I met you I fell out of love with her and I was scared of loving and admitting it to you please I'm sorry tonightI was going to confessto you but I didn't find you at home and I got pissed....I would like for us to work on our marriage even though I think with  everything I did to you...you wouldn't want that even if you don't answer now please think about it....

I am speechless sana yhoo...he kisses my forehead and lips then says..

Him:goodnight mkami

We drifted off to sleep....