MaBhengu

Chapter 9

Busani is the most selfish person I have ever met sana as for my parents maybe they are happy and they think I deserve this....but before I left I saw them standing there too they said nothing to defend me I'm sure they are rejoicing I have my phone and my wallet with me which is a good thing I'll sleep in a hotel or bnb here somewhere I'll see them tomorrow

I have booked into a hotel I switched off my phone and let's say today I'm drinking for the first time I ordered some wine here and they gave me 2 bottles my parents are the reason I'm crying once again because if it wasn't for them forcing me into this marriage non of this would be happening I take of the dress and heels that I didn't get the chance to change because of what I saw and I get into bed and fall asleep

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The following day:Sunday

I must say this hotel is fucking expensive but it's worth it also gives toiletries because everything I'm using now is brand new the tooth brush and everything the time is 10:25 I get dressed in that stupid dress after showering I look in the mirror and I don't look like someone whose life is messed up I look beautiful with or without makeup with my cultural scars on my face those ones done by Amabhaca

I check out and get into Ndalo's car I need to get myself a car once I'm settled in......what I'm thinking about now as I'm driving is that I didn't use protection with Busani and I don't even know he uses it with that girl what if he infected me with something god why do these things happen to me I'll have to get tested sana yho

I get to the Bhengu's house I drive in and it like everyone has left but there are a few cars left which I'm happy for I'm not in the mood to talk to anyone right now a nap would do...I get into the house everyone is in the lounge the parents,brothers,sisters and a few aunts and uncles and the husband of the year Busani....Ndalo is the first to stand up and comes to hug me and asks if I'm okay I tell her I'm good I just need to change

MaZulu:mntanami you can go and change then you can come back we are having a family meeting...

I'm not their family yhoo but I don't want to be rude I smile and nod then go upstairs to change this room repulses me sana I feel vomiting...I go downstairs and sit between to Ndalo and Buhle and I keep quiet

Bab'bhengu:Ndondakazi unjanii

How does he expect me to be mxm
I smile and answer

Me:I'm doing great baba thank you for asking

I  WANT TO LEAVE RIGHT NOW ARGHH!!!

Bab'bhengu:ehhh Busani thina singabantu abadala we wanted to talk to about what happened yesterday what you did was pure disrespect for our family name and mostly your wife uMaDlamini and you did your shenanigans in my house you brought a girl and slept with her in my house in a bed you share with your wife uyeyisa marniie Busani what do you have to say for yourself!!!?

Bab'bhengu is seriously pissed sana yhoo....this thing they call my husband is looking down I don't know if he regrets what he did or what

Him:ngingathanda ukuxolisa baba kuni bantu abadala but most importantly kumkami I know what I did is wrong and I know I disrespected you baba nawe Buseka

Ohh Buseka is my matrimonial name I was given by my mother in law MaZulu
(A/N:I'm Xhosa I don't know if in the Zulu culture this is done but I know in the Xhosa culture it is done)

Me:Bengicela uphuma klo mshado

I say with a blank straight face and I say calmly....I hear gasps Ndalo is holding my hand tightly

Dad:Ini(what?!)

Me:In Cape Town after the first night I spent with Busani his girlfriend called him and he made no effort of answering outside at all however he answered the call in front of me  telling her he loves her and he misses her now I wouldn't mind he has a girlfriend because this is a loveless marriage and I don't expect him to love me what upset me the most was level of disrespect he showed me and he had the guts to ask me if the call made me angry when he knew what he did was wrong.....and yesterday showed that he doesn't have respect for me as I have respect for him I've tried acting civil with Busani but he doesn't want to meet me halfway the only time Busani acknowledges me as his wife is when he wants sex from me and that's it we have only known each other for a week and this is what he has done just think what he would do in the near future.....so I want out

Everyone is quiet his sisters are comforting me not that I need them to because I'm not crying his mother and aunts are looking at me with sympathy as for his father and uncles they seem disappointed....my parents and sisters they are looking at me with blank faces something I expected and Busani is looking at me with pleading eyes....fuck him

Mom:emtshatweni kuyabekezelwa Yamihle

Mqundu wakhe lomama respectfully yho

MaZulu:mntanami uqinisile umawakho siyazi imbi lento yenziwe uBusani mxolele mntanami

Dad:Yamihle what you're saying is complete nonsense awuphumi klo mtshato sewutshatile sundihlaza mntanandini

Bab'bhengu:Ndondakazi uma uphuma klo mshado the deal to invest in your father's company is off uyakwazi loko angithi

I can't believe these people.....they want me to sacrifice my happiness for this bullshit

Dad:yabona wena uba ukhe waphuma klo mtshato I'm disowning you ndiyakuxelela

Wow....now that is something I never expected now its either I stay and be unhappy or leave and get disowned by my parents well after this I don't have parents they are dead to me I'm done....I sit and think for a while

Me:fine I'll stay...

I see everyone's eyes light up

Me:but just know that I'm the one who is without family you two that call yourselves parents you're no longer my parents I will never forgive you for everything you've done to me as for you sisters I don't know what I ever did to you but you have always hated me but I'm sure you will be happy that I'll no longer be a part of your family your parents have disowned me it's fine even though they were there they were there for you not me and it's okay I've accepted it.....I hope you will be happy with the money you will be getting from this deal I'm sacrificing my happiness for you I hope you live with yourselves now I want to change the room I'm in I don't want to share a room with Busani I want my space can you at least give me that.....

They're all quiet they are all looking at me and I'm only realizing it now that I was crying all along...

Ndalo:I knew you would want another room so I prepared one for you..

I give her a small smile I love her so much the only true sister I have.....she takes my hand and stands up with Buhle and Sli following us we get into Busani's room we get all of my stuff and move it to the other room and I sit on the bed as they look at me

Me:thank you guys....however can you please give some time alone please

Buhle:okay baby

She kisses my forehead and hugs me the other two follow and Ndalo is the last one

Ndalo:I love you

Me:me too

We both laugh because of me not  saying 'I love you too'

I close the door behind her and lock the door and get on the bed them drift to sleep...