Boundaries

Boundaries Chapter 13

~~~Dylan~~~

"Is that a banana in your pants?" Andrew teases, covering his mouth to hold in his laughter.

"What?" I ask mindlessly, still in a trance from the kiss. After a few seconds of realization of what just happened, I gawked. I kissed him. This is real and if I pinch myself I will still be here. A couple of snickers and giggles come from different parts of the room and I avert my eyes down to my crotch.

There is certainly something sticking out from underneath it and it is hard, if I may so myself. To assuage my subsequent mortification, my hands immediately cover it and I almost stand up. Almost. Because my boner doesn't feel like an erection but rather-

"Is that literally a banana in your pants?" someone snorts and there is a burst of laughter. I pull out a medium sized banana from underneath my jeans. I don't know what's going on. 

Everyone starts laughing, and I am laughing too as if it were contagious. And the next thing I know, the banana is being shared among the group, each person biting into it and laughing with their mouths agape. 

Andrew catches my eyes and says something like, " You are so funny." or, " You are so dreamy," or maybe it was, " You are so dreaming." but I couldn't make out the words. 

Suddenly, the room was spinning and I was being shook." You're dreaming, Dylan." someone said. Their voice was muffled, like it was underwater. "You're dreaming," they repeated. I think it was Skylar. My eyes squinted from the bright light and I rubbed them tiredly. My head was throbbing tremendously. I realized I was in school and I was one of the last students in class. I checked my watch and now was my lunch period. 

Skylar looked at me worriedly. "Are you okay?" she asked and rubbed my head. "You were kind of...laughing to yourself. Were you dreaming of something?"

"Yeah," I replied, perplexed. "It was really weird." I ran my hands through my hair. Remembering dreams was not a talent of mine but I remember this one quite clearly. If that was just a dream, then what really happened? Thinking, it finally dawned on me and my cheeks burned bright red. "Let's get going," I said slowly to Skylar.

We both walked to the junior's hangout, where I preferred spending my lunch break now. I wasn't in the mood to talk to friends, and besides, I had a really bad headache. As we were walking, Skylar gave me curious glances every now and then but I was too fixed into my own thoughts. She could walk with me in comfortable silence, and that is why I liked her. 

Andrew's face kept popping up into my head and I remember the way the corner of his lips turned upward after he kissed me. I felt something, which was clearly shown, but all I feel is awkward and uncomfortable toward him now.  

He said it was just a dare, and that's all it was, right?

Nothing more, right?

Right.

Then again, it is all so confusing because I had felt something, but now all I feel is dirty and I had wanted him to place his hands on me but now all I want to do is throw up. After the banana incident, I had ran out of the room and into the nearest bathroom and actually wanked off to relieve myself. I shuddered thinking about it. It was humiliating, even though I was the only one who knew about it.

It's not right, I concluded once we sat down on the couches in the junior's hangout. Boys shouldn't kiss other boys because that is sinful and abominable and it isn't right. I think it is best to avoid Andrew as best as I can because something like that should never happen again.

I managed a smile at Skylar and she sighed in relief and returned the gesture. "I thought you were gone forever in that little mind of yours." she opined.