One Wrong Doesn't Make It Right

Just the beginning

Let's hope he grows out of that immature shit soon since he's been talking about getting married before he turns 30.

Mentally preparing myself for the rest of this report I have to do I texted Rae again saying how much I missed them and yet she still hasn't seen my message. That's been her thing lately saying that she didn't see my message because she was sleep but I know she's just ignoring me.

I've tried talking to her about the things I see going on between us but yet again she makes taking care Luca is an excuse for every little thing that she does. Her cheating on me never crossed my mind so I wonder what about me is making her not interested.

All this thinking is making me lose my focus on this project let me get back to work.
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Finally I'm off the clock and on my way home on the way, I stopped and picked up some flowers for Raelyn to see if this will at least get her to talk to me. Stepping foot into my house I saw Raelyn and her sister Bree watching tv in the living room.

"How are y'all doing?" I asked taking off my blazer and shoes.

"Hey Ayden I'm good how was work?" Bree asked seeming interested.

"I'm good thanks for asking......hey baby!" I said with base in my voice trying to get her to at least see me.

"Oh hey." She simply said as she flicked through the channels on the tv not even glancing at me.

Exhaling a deep breath I went to Luca's room to check up on him and he was wide awake playing with his toy. "Well hey there little man." I said picking him up gently as I held him in my arms.

He looked just like his mom staring deep into my eye as I tickled his tiny belly. Letting his tiny hand grip my finger I wiggled it around as a smile appeared on his face. My son is so beautiful I swear, he's is my world and I'll be damned if anything happened to him.

Putting him back in his crib I went in our room to take off my already worn clothes. I could still smell my workplace from my suit it was disgusting. Currently in my boxers I poured me a shot of Bacardi and took it back like it was water. Alcohol has been giving me some type of relief everyday after work. I think it's starting to become a problem but I only have 3 shots 4 days a week.

There is so much built up inside of me I just wanna punch someone but I have to keep it together for my family. I was drowning out every single feeling with alcohol for about a year now and I never thought it would become a habit but so many thoughts, actions, and questions are filling up my head.

I'm fine right?
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Right when I was about to get some sleep Raelyn finally decided to come lay in the bed with me. "How was your day today?" I managed to ask while she pulled the covers over her body.

"Fine." She said in the most simplest way.

"Can we talk about something? I need to say something I've been feeling lately."

"Go ahead Ayden I'm listening." She seem annoyed and uninterested.

"How do you feel about me applying for the executive position? I'll be making $50k more a year but I will be working 6 days a week 12 hour shifts. I think it's a great opportunity babe."

"Sure sounds good..."

"You don't sound exciting Rae what's wrong? You've been distant as hell yet haven't came and talked to me about it. You've been telling me how you want a bigger house and I'm trying to get that done. Do you still even love me?" My emotions were filled with rage and loneliness.

"I am happy for you but when are you gonna spend time with me and your son. All you do is work work work work...when you come home you barely do or say anything. Like damn show me some attention, tell me I'm pretty once in a while."

"Why are you lying? I tried kissing you this morning and you looked at me disgusted. The sex is half way there yet you seem to be only blaming me for everything. You barely even dress up anymore you been using this stay at home mom thing as an excuse and it's pissing me off. Won't even let me pleasure you but got the nerve to blame me. Are you not attracted to me anymore!" I asked furiously.

"I'm still attracted to you Ayden I'm just tired...I need a break from being a mom. When you come home you never take care of Luca, all you do is pick him for 5 mins and put him back down. It's funny because you got more drinks in your hand than your son." She said shaking her head and turning to face the other side of the bed.

"You wanted to have him, I said it wouldn't be a good time but you don't believe in abortion at least I'm man enough to still take care and provide for him."

"That's what your suppose to do!!" She yelled at me.

"I don't need this right now I'm sleeping in the living room and I'm gonna....."

"Your gonna what? Go throw back 4 more shots...yea sleep on the couch I wanna be alone."

Getting up from the bed I took my pillow and left the room. She's really starting to make me lose interest in her, I'm trying my hardest to keep this marriage together but I'm seriously beginning to be unhappy.

This couch is gonna hurt my back but whatever I'd rather be away from her than sleep next to her. Ugh how long is this marriage gonna last until one of us ends it?

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