Exploding Heart Disorder (Fearless Vampire Killers Fanfic)

Chapter Twenty-Five

As we step into the front room, we gain some strange looks from the guys, but one pointed look from me has them simply greeting Alyx instead. She sits down on the sofa next to me silently, and Kier instantly engages in a conversation with her, for the moment at least distracting her from her problem.

"So. What happened?" Shane asks quietly in my ear, nudging me slightly to gain my attention. I sigh deeply.

"I think it's up to her to tell you that." I reply quietly, and then stand up, quickly crossing the room and grabbing a clean towel from the bathroom. I toss it towards Alyx, and she smiles gratefully, using the towel to quickly dry her long black hair. I sit down on the sofa next to her, for a while just thinking to myself about how I should help Alyx. I know she did wrong, kissing Laurence, but if I've forgiven Laurence for it and all...and there's this tiny little voice in the back of my head telling me I need to put such a petty instance behind me and carry on as normal...

I can tell it's growing late when Luke says he's off to bed, Kier is walking around like an idiot in his underwear muttering old Suicide Silence songs after one too many beers, and Shane is discussing guitar chords with Laurence. Alyx's eyelids are drooping, although she keeps nodding herself awake again, and a few times she falls to the side in an exhausted heap before righting herself and apologising for almost falling onto the floor flat on her face.

"Give her my bed." I hear Shane whisper in my ear. "She's exhausted, I'll sleep on the sofa."

I nod slowly.

"In fact. Why don't you both just share your bed?" I feel my face heat up at that, and scowl at my fellow timid in an attempt to get him to shut up. He just grins.

I turn towards Alyx to see her dozing off again, and nudge her awake gently. "Alyx." I say quietly. "You should get some sleep. Come on." I tug her up until she's standing, and she follows on silently and in a sleepy haze as I open the bedroom door. She practically stumbles across the room, flopping onto the first bed she sees: which, for some weird reason, happens to be mine. I smile slightly, and she glances up at me sleepily.

"I've had enough." She whispers. "I'm sick and tired of people bossing me around, treating me like their puppet. Did you know...did you know that tonight I was thinking..." She sits up slowly, and I sit on the bed next to her, placing her bag on the floor. "I was thinking of ending everything. I'm sick of having parents that don't want me. I'm sick of being treated like dirt. I'm sick of being the outsider, the outcast. I want to mean something to someone." She rests her head against my shoulder, and as I look down at her I see the tears streaming down her cheeks slowly. My heart aches.

"You do mean something to someone." She looks up at me in question. "In fact, you're very special to someone I know very well. He adores you, deep down. Doesn't want to see you hurt. He hasn't known you for very long, a month or so at the most, but despite everything he says or thinks about you, he worships the very ground beneath your feet. He doesn't want to see you this upset, because it hurts him, deep down. He knows you've done him wrong, but in his heart, he knows that's not the problem."

Alyx looks like she might either whack me or hug me. "And what's the problem?"

"He's scared of adding to that collection of scars on your arms. He knows he'll only do something to hurt you again, and so he doesn't want to give you any excuse to blame yourself for his mistakes again."

By this point her face is burning scarlet, her sleepy eyes now wide with shock. She opens her mouth to speak, but obviously thinks against it as she closes it again. My arms go around her in an instant, and as I hold her close we are both at a loss for words. I can feel her tears wetting my shirt, but I don't mind. Maybe what she needs is a chance to cry herself dry. Maybe that's what she's needed all along.

We stay like this for a while, for longer than we did in the van, and when I eventually pull away she looks like she might just keep crying, despite the fact her eyes look red, dry and sore. I push the hair back from her face, smiling reassuringly.

"Okay?"

She nods slowly, and then leans in quickly, pressing her lips against mine gently. Our lips mould together instinctively, our kiss simply slow and sweet, filling a gap in my chest that's been gaping for all too long. I settle her back on the bed, her head hitting the pillow as we kiss, and then she goes limp against me; as I pull back, it takes me only a moment to realise that she's fallen asleep. I smile again, only able to find this adorable, and wind an arm around her waist, pulling her close as I lie down next to her. Her face muzzles into my neck as she sleeps, as though she is snuggling closer, and as I hold her, a small smile spreading across my face, I settle into a blissful sleep.

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[Author's Message]

I'm sorry. This had to happen. I was going to drag this out until a little later, but I felt like I shouldn't drag it out too long; this fanfiction is long enough as it is!

Sorry I haven't been uploading as frequently as I was before; I felt like I should upload tonight, so I wrote this chapter whilst I was meant to be doing fitness in PE! So healthy aren't I?

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Keep the peace, stay awesome and faith always...Bevers x