Sonder

Beginning

"Do you ever think .. he would approve of this ?" said Draya
We were sitting on the beach watching the sun go down watching the waves hit the sand
I looked at her , her skin flowed with the setting sun  "I'm pretty sure he would've approved why you ask that " I said
"Because you know me and him use to ya know... " said Draya looking away
I looked down "You can say his name and mention it that was your first love" I said "also was my boy " I added
"... I'm sorry it was just on my mind .. you know just wonder if he would've approved us " said Draya
"He would ..." I said looking at back at her
She was staring at me in disbelief  "How you know? His best friend and his first love together " said Draya
I grinned and nodded before looking back at the sunset "Just know that I know " I said
"Oh"
I said nothing and kept looking at the sunset
I can feel her laying her head on my shoulder
"I never thought we would ever get to this point " said Draya
"Who you telling it was a very long road" I said
"A very long one"

*4 years ago 2 days  before man man's death *

Draco
I had enter the doors of the chicken spot with my hands in my pocket
Place was busy like usual
I looked to left towards the front back seeing man man giving me a glare
See what this nigga want so I can get out of here
Me and him is not on the best of terms
I made my way over there and sat down
We just stared at each other for a moment before I decided to break the silence
"What's good?" I said "What we gotta talk about.." I added
"The situation and something else " said Man man
I put my hands together "Get the talking " I said
"Ima make it quick everything ties together ight I got into some deep as shit ... and don't know how long I got" He said
I arched my eyebrow "What deep ass shit ?" I said
"Don't worry about it I just gotta pay my dues"
"Nigga what deep ass shit and what dues nigga tell me so I can take care of it "
"Nah I'm not finna have you mixed up in my bullshit Draco this shit is on me ... " said man man
"Nah whatever you got going on ima handle it you my brudda man regardless if we not on-*- the best terms you know I got you " I said
"I know that man but I gotta handle this shit on my own and if it all comes down to it God had his timing " said Man man
"Nigga stop talking crazy " I said
"It's the truth nigga "
"That shit ain't happening .. what you need me to do " I said
"Nothing nigga that involves this situation but the other situation " said Man man
"Look I kept my distance from Draya if you was wondering ... to get that feeling away" I said
Me and Man man fell out over Draya... Draya who is his girlfriend also our long time friend I always had thing for her but never spoke about it because one I don't like expressing how I feel  . Two because Draya always had heart eyes for Man man . Three Draya is way out of my lead personally don't think she would get with nigga like me . And finally me and her always had a love hate relationship. One night I was cross faded and ended up admitting to Man man how I feel about Draya and how I wish she would've chose me instead of him

"I already know what you been doing ... and look Ian mad at you anymore about the situation" said Man man "I can't control how you feel about Draya I know she's a amazing ass girl I would do anything in the world for her just like you would do the same . I love that girl I don't want nothing bad to happen to her or seeing her get hurt or be hurt this why the main reason why I wanted to meet up with you" he added shocking the hell out of me
I nervously laughed "Nigga are you okay "
"I'm Ight nigga what I'm trying to say is if something happens to me where I cannot see the daylight no more I want you to be there with Draya look after her even be with her after years past ... you the only person after me I trust with Drayas heart" He said reaching into his pocket
I  just looked at him still in shock not say anything
He had a small black box and opened it up
There was a ring
"I was gonna give this to her tomorrow but things had changed I want you to be the one to give it to her when time passes" said Man man
I sat up straight "Man nah you give that to her it's a gift from you" I said
"Nah special items like this will have a haunting memory behind it and I don't want her to look at the ring a could be deceased man gave her she was in love with making her all sad and hurt all over again " said Man Man "I want her to look at the ring and think about you a man of living " He added
I said nothing and rubbed the side of my face
"Do this for me man and promise me you gonna take care of her and never hurt her "said Man man
"Man man nigga you not -" I said
"Draco promise me man " said Man man looking me dead in the eyes
His eyes were glossy and that's hardly rare of Man man to getting ready to cry that made me feel some type of way because that's my brudda and its crazy he's talking to me like this
He had slid me the ring box
I took it and put it into my pocket
"I promise man I got you... you my brother for life ... " I said
"For life" He said getting up "let me get up out of here though" he added
I got up with no words
He took me by surprise and gave me a full blown on hug
"I Love you man"
"I love you too" I said hugging him back
He had let me go and walked away without looking back
I watched him leave out the doors of the chicken spot not knowing this will be the last day I would see my brother alive

*Man Mans funeral 10:47am*

"before we close this Remembrance of Marcus "Man man" Smith we have a one more speaker " said The pastor
I lifted my head up seeing a very heartbroken Draya who left my side making her way up there . She cried all her makeup off
There was a couple of whispers surrounding the church
I just kept my attention on Draya how bad I just wanna take all that pain from her in this instant moment but I know it's not the time Forreal that
The pastor whispered something in Draya ear and she nodded before getting a piece of paper out of her pocket
She fixed the mic before letting out a breath "I-I-I" said Draya stuttering barely can get a word out 
"Take ya time honey" said somebody with a soft tone
I started to see Draya knees buckle my instant reaction was to get up and go up there with her
"I-I cant do this..." said Draya
She almost fell over but i had caught her
She began to cry again but this time it was bad to save her from getting looked at by all these folks I help her off the stage and guided her out of the church so she can catch herself some air
"Draya breathe" I said
She broke out of my arms and kept crying it took her a min to get her composure and give me a look
"You did this... "
I arched my eyebrow "Did what Draya?" I questioned
"You killed him..." said Draya
That threw me all the way off "D-" I said
She had cut me off " YOU KILLED HIM YOU FUCKING BASTARD!" screamed Draya starting to swing at me
I grabbed her by her wrists "I DIDNT KILL NOBODY DRAYA!" I spatted
"YES YOU DID YOU KILT HIM ! LET ME GO !" Screamed Draya
She kept putting up a fight until she broke free from my grip and slapped me dead in my face
I can feel my whole body tensing up and my hands itching to fight back but I maintained my cool
Tears  rolled down Draya face as she stared at me with so much hatred "You killed him its all your fault that he is gone all because you wanted to switch up on him like a pussy ass bitch that you are  he wouldve still been alive !" said Draya in mean tone
She really dont know the real reason why I had switched up and why me and him really fell out all because of her. but shes gonna believe whatever Man man had told her and what she believes.
"You have the audacity to even show your fucking face today you should be ashamed! you dont need to be here Draco you best leave before I tell everybody you are the reason that hes gone!" said Draya "Leave and stay out of my life forever !" she added
In that moment my feelings stop being numb from all this to feeling the pain my face started to get hot and my eyes started to glossy
I couldnt even figure out what to say to all this
"Yeah go home and cry your guilty heart out all alone thats what you deserve now go." said Draya fixing herself up
She headed back up the church steps and went inside didnt even bother to look back
I stood there dumbfounded heartbroken more than ever , hurt, clueless, and hopeless.
This just might be the end of everything  I thought but later down on the road I know things gonna change soon.