Evanescent [GI Kaeya x Reader x Diluc]

22. Dress

She closed her eyes sharply, reminiscing the parts of her mother. Yet, the only thing she could remember was the smile and the warmth that engulfed the frozen heart.

"I'm sorry," she whispered under her breath. "I can't be a kid who obeys her parents, decided to blame on my condition and... you."

The word that fell from her lips were heavier than a giant boulder. The glimmer tear rolled down from her cheeks to her chin一dropped to the dirt.

She wiped the tear harshly. "Ah, right. I shouldn't cry."

She shook her head quickly and waved it off with a smile. "Mom, do you know..."

For once in a while the shade of blue and red would appear in front of her mind一flashing her with questions and questions.

"There are two men that helped both, me and Anwyll. They're very kind but annoying." The last part was left as a small whisper and a chuckle, whereas she knew it wasn't the right thing to say. Especially if they had her gratitude.

"Despite that, they're caring and would always check up on me. And sometimes, I feel weird," Y/n announced. Her tone hinted the confusion and fear lingering.

Her heart beat rapid but slowly was tearing apart, as if someone cut them all. Her body felt light, from her eyes一her view一the flowers bloomed in delight, sun beamed with full happiness, there's no darkness.

Turned out, thinking about the love she felt could change her view of the world一the view no one could understand even though she explained it wide and clear.

Yet一

Was she ready for one?

"But... I'm not ready一It's not because of the arguement with Father!" She quickly shook it off and chuckled lightly before slowly dwelling in the agony she once felt.

"It's because I found Father... cheating years ago. I'm sorry I didn't bring that up to you."

She drank the earl grey tea belonged to her, trying to wash away the bothering feelings and atmosphere. "Ah, but two men? No worries, when my heart is ready, I'll choose one."

Y/n placed the cup on the small plate, still keeping up with her smile. "If only you're still here, who knows what can we do to Father?"

She chuckled aloud.

Full of regret.

A regret always came the last一where she hoped to have seen it from the start. And regret was the biggest pain that wouldn't vanish, no matter how hard she tried. "Ah...putting that aside, Anwyll has been doing great. He's planning to open a gardening business. Aren't you proud of him?"

Of course her mother would.

Anwyll was the pride of her family of course. "And I'm planning to... travel around Tevyat to where I can go and help around. I'm ready to get back on my feet. What about you?"

Instead of an answer she'd been dreaming to hear, the sound of howling wind came.

Her love for her mother could never be replaced.

****

Present.

The tavern was quiet as ever as people had left the place. She stood quiet with the red haired man, sweeping the floor and kept herself busy.

"You're going to leave?" He repeated the question to the busy h/c haired. She hummed in response, gaze was fixated to the ground. The tavern was heard nothing but the sweep and the small conversation.