Brain Dump

eleven inches

I bet you didn't notice
we were less than a foot apart
after you embraced me
in the stairwell
saying goodbye

it was just before three
we were the only people not in bed
dwelling in dreams
but I was in a dream too

you were less than a foot away
and I looked into the stunning
misty sea in your eyes
you looked at me
really looked at me
and smiled

I don't know what the smile was for
if it was because you were headed off
to your own dreams
or because you were glad the night was over

but I'd like to think it was for me
that you enjoyed the time spent
in coexistence
broken conversations
between comfortable silence
laughing at dad jokes
but I don't know

I almost wish I kissed you
to get it out of my system
so that you'd know what I felt
what I feel
without me finding the words
but I don't think you'd have liked that
I don't think you like me like that

so I just smiled back