Chaennie Collection Volume 2

First Place (9)

"Yes, it's...I don't know how to translate it in english but it's basically mixed feelings..like uhm you are happy but also sad. Ah!" Talia snaps her fingers, "Joyful sorrow."

"Joyful sorrow huh." I smile, what a simple way to put everything I'm feeling right now.

"Mhm, now c'mon." Talia suddenly gets up, giving me a hand.

"Where are we going?" I ask, grabbing her hand anyways.

"We are going to meet my friend, maybe she can help you."

"Oh but.."

"No buts Jennie. She's really nice, don't worry." Talia smiles, already dragging me along with her.

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"Jennie?"

"Rosie?"

"Wait wait, you two know each other." Talia points at me then at Rosie.

"Yeah..she's.."

"We're best friends." Rosie smiles, and I return it.

"Ah! Well I brought you here to talk to Rosie...but she probably already knows." Talia slumps on the barstool.

"Know about what?" Rosie looks at me with a slight frown.

"It's nothing Rosie." I smile, looking around the bar, "This place is really nice."

"Yeah, it's still technically hers." She points at Talia, "But I'm managing it."

"I see." I nod, as we watch Talia mouth something in Greek to Rosie before walking off.

"So." Rosie leans on the counter, "You want to tell me what's up?"

"It's nothing."

"Jennie."

"Roseanne." I copy.

"What's going on with you...you've been quiet since earlier."

"I'm just a bit jet lagged still." I lied.

"Really?" Rosie looks at me with a raised brow.

"Yes really."

"Is it her again?" She sighs.

"I didn't tell you?" It was my turn to frown.

"Tell me what?"

"Rene and I got divorced, literally just a few..woah hey! Rosie!" She suddenly dragged me out of the bar.

"What do you mean by divorced?"

"Uhm, is this a trick question?"

"Jennie, I'm serious."

"We got divorced. We separated."

"Right, but like why? Did she.."

"It was mutual. We've actually been separated for months now, we just needed to wait for the paperwork to be finalized."

"So this whole time you were going through that and you didn't even tell me?" Rosie looks at me with disappointment.

"I guess we're even then." I replied, trying not to sound too bitter.

"Even?"

"You didn't tell me you got a girlfriend." I turn my back away from Rosie, taking in the beautiful sight of Santorini at night.

"Why are we like this? How did we become so awkward with each other like this?" I finally speak up after a deafening silence, "We're supposed to be best friends..but you went away and I understand why...I know that you needed your time and space. That's why I didn't run after you, why I waited..but sometimes I wondered if things would be different if I stopped you from leaving that night."

Rosie stays quiet, and I glance quickly at her, before turning away again, "Would you still look at me if I did? Or would I continue hurting you?"

"Jen.."

"It'd probably be the latter right?" I sigh, finally willing myself to look at her, "I knew that, better than anyone. I wanted you but you seem to not want me. I mean you were so insistent in pushing me towards her. So I did that, because I thought that you won't look at me like I did you. I followed what you wanted and.."

"That's not fair Jen, you were the one that said you liked her, you were the one that kept gushing about her. All I want is for you to be happy and she was your happiness. No matter how hard I tried...nothing seemed to work. Just why couldn't you choose me? Just why can't your heart love someone other than her?"

"God Rosie you're an idiot you know that? Do you know how many times I've wanted to just kiss you since we were kids? I really thought you were my forever, but then you asked me to play this game and you told me that I'd realize something about you and I did..You made me realize that you won't look at me the way I looked at you, because you just kept pushing me to another person. So I buried my feelings for you, I kept them away, and I slowly opened my heart to Rene."

"That's not true! That's not what I wanted you to realize! You were the only one I ever saw, I ever wanted to be with..it was you..I admit I thought it wouldn't take much to make you see me as more than just your best friend. That I should have tried harder, fought for you harder..but you just couldn't look at me."

"But I did Rosie..I still do..and you always used to look at me." I take a moment, trying to memorize everything I can about her, "I know what I want for my prize now."

"Huh?"

"You told me I won our little game right?"

"Jen.."

"Rosie..as my prize.." I take a deep breath, "I want you to forget about me."

"Jennie." Rosie frowned, taking a step forward, towards me.

"I missed you Rosie." I smile, reach a hand out and cupping her face, my thumb smoothing over her cheek, "I'll miss you. Take care okay."I give her one last smile, before walking away.

"JENNIE!" She yells.

I turn around and shake my head, "For the record..you're my number one." I wave my hands over my head, a wide smile on my face. If this is the last image Rosie has of me, then I want it to be one with me smiling. I want her to remember me smiling.

Goodbye Rosie..

I wish I could have told you that I love you.

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A/n: The end?

Let me know what you think.

Oh and I know I'm still working on the Fearless collection but a friend and I were talking about bucket lists..and it's going to be part of the next story. So tell me something on your bucket list /i'm plugging this in since no one replied on twitter sad...jk/

Till next time.

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