Shattered (tommyinnit angst)

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//TW// mention of blades, physical abuse, mental abuse, homophobia, shouting

Tommy's POV

                           I wake up in the same room as usual. Back hurting. As I take the heavy covers off my body, I get up and stumble back a bit. "Why was that worse then usual??" I whisper to myself. I walk to the bathroom to brush my teeth but instantly regret it. I run out of the bathroom and sit on my bed. Now breathing heavily, i sit on my bed. After a little bit I start to calm down and think why are there still blades in there??  I get back up and decide to just not brush my teeth today and instead I start walking downstairs.

As I arrive downstairs, I see my family around the table eating their breakfast. "Damn it's Tommy again" Wilbur rolls his eyes at me. I come up to the table and sit down in the seat. "Wilbur, give him a break", techno says, "he went through a bit yesterday." A little burst of hope forms in my heart but then is shattered seconds later. "But he can't even act normal or be normal! He deserves nothing!" Wilbur says with a small grin. "Okay Wilbur that is enough." Phil says. When other people are rude to me, Phil helps me. But he also always breaks me down himself. I start eating slowly making sure no one will hurt me because we have a hard history of that. At least I was excited though, tomorrow my best friend Tubbo would come to hang out with me! I can finally get a break of my broken family. As I finish eating I walk back up to my room not wanting to cause anymore conflict. I open my door and plop myself back on the bed tired and hurt. I think back to what happened last night.

Flashback //TW// physical abuse, mental abuse, homophobia

After eating dinner I was heading back upstairs tired of the fight me and Wilbur just had. I guess he really doesn't like me. I get up the stairs so I don't get hurt. Thank god we only had a word fight, other nights it was way worse. As I get in my room I sit down on my bed and open my phone to just talk to my other friends and look at social media. A few minutes later, suddenly Wilbur bursts in without warning. I let out a short unexpected scream. "We weren't finished!" Wilbur says in a louder voice. "What did I even do?!" I ask scared. "You're so weird and I don't know why you can't be normal like the rest of us!!!" He comes up to me starting to give me punches to my side. He then pushes me off my bed and starts kicking me. All i can think is I don't want to die even though I knew I wouldn't, it felt like I was getting the life getting kicked out of me. "Please stop!" I screech, tears spilling out of my eyes. "THEN BE NORMAL LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, YOU STUPID BI FREAK!!" What... he doesn't like me cause I'm bi?!  Why can't I be like everyone else. As straight as a line? But instead I'm as straight as a pizza slice.

Flashback over

"Why can't I just be normal?" I cry to myself. Tears flooding from my eyes like a waterfall from the weight on my shoulders for everything i want to be. "Maybe I can just become nothing?"