Need to Blame, Sinn.

Kabanata 01

"Get away with my boyfriend! You slut!" someone shouted from behind.

Inalis nya ang pagkakahawak ng kanyang boyfriend sa baywang ko and before she do something I expected, inunahan ko na. I slapped her.

Obviously she was appalled. Satisfied seeing her though, maybe I overslapped. But who cares anyway? even her boyfriend can't defend her.

Useless.

Tinignan ko ang kamay ko. "Oh, it hurts. I think your face too thick, miss." I said bago ko sya binalingan ng tingin.

"Just want to remind you, I don't even touch your boyfriend, he's the one who keeps on tailing me. Make sure to ask before you conclude or assume things and I won't say sorry for what I've done, you deserve my slap anyway." I did not wait for any response, tumalikod na agad ako at nagsimulang maglakad.

Nasayang lang oras ko para magsaya. I'm trying to savor the night where I'm still stressed-free. Dahil baka bukas, magbago na.

"Oh my God!" Cky dragged me to our couch. As we sitted she continued to bable. Kumuha nalang ako ng alak na at sinalinan yung baso. I dranked it straight. And another shot, again and again.

"Damaris! Do you know who you just hit? She's the daughter of the company we dreamed to get employed!" she exasperatedly said and looked at me.

"And so? Required ba na magpasampal ako kahit wala akong ginawa?" I spat. 

I am not a puppet. Not in my own world. Sanay kasi yung mga tao na maging sunod-sunuran lalo na kung may kailangan. If you let someone control you, you just fucking let the shit enter your life and go to waste.

She sighed. "Yah, what do I expect? Anyways, let's go to another club, Valkyrie! Heard nandon raw sila Eustace tagal na natin silang di nakabonding. Mukha tayong kawawa ditong dalawang naglalasing." She laughed.

"Okay." I said. Mabilis syang nagtawag ng waitress para makuha ang bill. After paying, she grabbed me  and we waited for valet.

"Ouch! Can you atleast drive slower? Ang sakit mo sa ulo magmaneho." Sinabi ko habang nakapikit na hinihilot ang sintido. Ganito na ba ako kahina?

"Duh, don't blame my driving skills here. Normal speed to. Yung tolerance mo sisihin mo. Tagal mong nagtago e."

"As if I hide."

She snorted. "As if, you did not."

"Hey I am not! Nagrereview ako." I scowled and faced her.

Kung makapagsabi akala mo naman nangibang bansa ako. The moment we graduated I already prepared myself for the upcoming board exam. Lalo na't halos gimik din yung kalahating part ng college life ko so hindi lahat alam ko. Ckyrina did a good part being an alcoholic influencer.

Pinagbigyan ko nga muna syang mag yolo kami tapos yung mga sumunod na buwan hanggang bago magexam is nakatuon sa pagrereview. I barely go out. Pag naubos na stocks ng grocery ko sa bahay doon lang ako lumalabas then afterwards back to routine lang magbasa, analyze, solve or formulate.

Nakakadrained magreview at mag-aral. Three months without hanging out and Cky's presence felt so long. Sobrang lifeless ko pero malaking balik naman once I passed the exams. I hope we would.

She smirked and threw a glanced on me. "We reviewed too, incase you forget that we are blockmates. Pero we still have a life to enjoy no. Ikaw, mia! 3 months really? God, mamatay ako ng walang alak."

"Wag mo akong igaya say- Putangina!" I screamed when the car screeched and stopped. Ano bang naisip nito?

"Oh my God! Oh my God!" She chanted.

"What the fuck, Cky! Ano bang naisip mo bigla? Papatayin mo ba ako kung kailan bukas na result ng exam?!" Sigaw ko sakanya.

"Oh my God, Damaris! Bukas na nga ang result! I almost forgot! Damn. I'm fucking nervous! Oh my God, lagot ako kay Dad pag bumagsak ako!" she looked so tensed and fanned herself kahit na malamig naman rito sa loob ng sasakyan.

Natawa ako. "Kanina lang ang carefree mo pa ha. Iinom mo mo nalang yan, baka yan pa maging caused of death mo tapos ako pa main suspect."

"Ugh! Wala ka talagang kwenta kausap." She rolled her eyes.

Cky used to be my seatmate in college at habang tumatagal na kakilala ko sya, doon ko lang rin nadiskubre bakit sya sobrang pressured sa pamilya nya lalo na yung tatay nya.

But still, di mahahalata kasi gullible sya. Minsa pinagsisihan ko na nakasama ko sya kasi para syang kakandidato. She almost knew everyone kahit ibang degree or school pa that's why daig pa nya yung kakandidato.

Though I'm still thankful that Cky stayed with me until now. I can say that I have a life nung nakilala ko sya. Tamang impluwenya ng alak, at kakilala. Yung not friends pero hindi din stranger. Familiarity lang.

"Eustacio Luis!" Cky shouted and waved her hand that made people looked at us. She really know how to draw attention.

"Full name does not required here, Ckyrina." Luis hissed.

"Then why did you say my name?"

"Still not full name though."

"Parang flavor nga ng ice cream pangalan mo eh. Pistacio. Sarap kaya non." then winked at him.

"You're grossed." he said then looked at me, "And you are?"

Seriously? Hindi na ba ako kilala nitong gagong to? I rolled my eyes at him. Mapagpanggap.

Bigla syang binatukan ni Cky. "Hoy lolo tasyo! Di mo sya kilala? For real?" Gulat na tanong nya.

"Ugh! For the love of God Cky stop giving me pet names!" He frustratedly said. "Sa tingin mo ba talaga I forgot her? patola ka talaga."

"Whatever you say, but seriously? you looked like a pet." Ckyna chirped that made us both laughed. Pagkatapos ay naglakad na sya papunta sa vip room.

Habang ako, naiwang nakatayo sa harap niya. That gave me time to checked him.

Walang mintis, gwapo pa rin. Walang tapon. 

I smirked. It's almost been a year since we last saw each other. I heard he went to Canada with his family to visit his relatives.

"So.. long time no see. Hope you miss me." Luis said as he stared at me. I caught him scanned my body.

I wore a tight fitting skin toned mid-length dress paired with white sneakers. I don't do high heels. Mahirap na, in case may mangyari ready ako tumakbo.

I also did my make up pero light lang since night out naman to. Lagi ko ring suot itong kwintas at hikaw na galing kay mama. Hindi naman ako sanay mag ayos ng sobra dahil alak lang naman ang isinama ko dito. Pero siguro ngayon, may iba pa.

"Of course I've missed you, who would not?" I answered. Pagkatapos ay tinaasan ko sya ng kilay at tinapatan ang paninitig nya sa akin.

"Ugh! still cannot resist you." He massaged the bridge of his nose before he hurriedly closed the distance between us and gently touched my neck, still giving me an intensed gaze..

Just one touch of him and I felt so much sensation. It brings back so much memories. Scorching and messy.

"I missed you too. All of you." he sensually whispered before giving me a kiss. I kissed him back.

It takes almost 3 minutes before he halted and asked. "Wanna spend the rest of the night with me again, Sinn?"

"Your wife?" tanong ko.

"Canada."

I nodded. This time it was me who kissed him like there's no tomorrow.