Starting Over

Chapter 14: I'll Always Be There For You

That makes me roll my eyes.

"A stage where I was scared of men. You know I kissed someone last night and his lips weren't that bastards lips on my skin. I was really thinking I got him out of head and then here you come reminding me of the past."

"The past will leave. It's only a matter of time. Also I think you should let this guy in. Maybe he'll be your escape. Escape from everything rotten in life."

"I shouldn't have to escape." I choke out. "I shouldn't have to find a safe haven." I pause trying to calm myself. "You know he told me he wish he saw everything through my eyes. Why? Why would someone want to see things through my eyes?"

"Because your special. I know you don't think you are but come on Taylor don't be dumb. You have a kind heart and have been through some of the toughest shit life as had to offer. I wish I saw things through your eyes too. I wish that bastard was in prison."

"Thanks. I do too. I wish he was rotting away in a cell. Instead of roaming free. But like dad said we shouldn't bring attention to the Lawson name. Especially when the middle child acts out too much."

"Taylor, stop being like that. I love you. Dad does too. He's just not great at showing it."

"I know. I just wish he said it ya know?"

"Yeah I know. By the way if you ever thought of filing a lawsuit, you'd have my support. A hundred percent. I'd be there for you."

"Thanks but I'm not planning on it."

"Just talk to a lawyer. Please for me. See if he could even serve time."

"I'll talk to someone."

"Taylor I'm always going to be here for you." That means a lot. Being a Lawson I don't have a lot of support.

"I know."

"So don't shut me out."

"I won't. I promise."

"Why's Chase Jackson look like he wants to murder me?" He ask looking through the window.

"I don't know." I tell him.

Apparently he could read the expression on my face because he starts talking "Go see what's wrong with him? I need to get back to my hotel anyways."

"Okay, love you."

"Love you."

I walk out of the coffee shop and towards the way I saw Chase walking.

"Chase? What's wrong?"

"What's wrong? Are you seriously asking me that? You kissed me last night and then I see you on a date with a dude. Are you playing me? I really like you Taylor and I know we're nothing but can you seriously not like wait a week. Here I've been thinking about you all morning and your with another guy."

He just admitted he has feelings for me. He thinks I was on a date with my brother. Eww. Time to have a little fun with this.

"Are you jealous?" I ask in a teasingly way.

"Yes! Of course I am. I'm been thinking about you all day. But that's not the point. The point is I can't be with you if you're going to be a hoe."

"He's my brother! Okay? Chill out."

"Really y'all look nothing alike."

"I know he looks like my dad."

"I look like my dad too. You though look like you've been crying. What's wrong?"

"If I tell you if would change your perspective of me."

"I just want you to let me. Don't push me away."

"I'll let you in soon. I promise. I just can't let you in right now. I have to call someone. I have to make a really important phone call. Your mom is a lawyer right?"

"Yeah. She is. Why?"

"I'm asking for a friend." I try to sound convincing.

"Well tell your friend if you've murdered someone she won't defend you."

"I'll let her know. I gotta go though."

We say bye and walk in the opposite direction.

Me: Can I get Mrs. Jackson's number? My friend and roommate Loren needs a lawyer and doesn't have her number."

I asked my mom for her number. If I asked Chase he would pry to much.

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6/2/21
4:19pm