I Love You Since Then

27

"I'm scared. She didn't fought for us before, what if she'll do the same. What if she'll got scared again?" I finally said

"Unnie-" she said but I cut her off

"I just can't risked it" I said

Even though I gave her 3 months to put everything in line. We can remain friends and maintain the group

"Let's say that we became a couple, what if a big problem came and we broke up. That would be awkward for the group. It will affect the group so much" I said and buried my face in my knees

Wheein calmly rubbed my back

"Unnie, that's why you guys are together" she said while caressing my hair

"You'll fight together" she continued

"You won't leave each other" she said and that's when I raise my head

"But what if she'll choose her career over me?" I asked her

"This is her dream, I can't ruin it for her" I said and smiled sadly, remembering how Yongsun-unnie always talks about her dream of becoming a singer

I can't ruin everything

"I just gave you some words. It's still your decision" she said and stood up to fixed her clothes while I remain seated

After a few minutes, the two arrived as Wheein helped them with the bags

"We're back" Hyejin greeted as soon as she opened the door

Yongsun-unnie followed her and Jihye-unnie

"What are you guys talking about?" Hyejin asked

Yongsun-unnie's eyes met mine

"I just said something to Byulie-unnie. Don't mind it, what did you buy?" Wheein changed the topic as Yongsun-unnie made her way to me

"Are you okay?" she worriedly asked

"I a-am" I said and stood up to fixed my clothes

"What are you thinking?" she asked again

I looked at her eyes that's full of concern and worry

Our memories flash back to me, one by one

All the times and event we celebrated together, everything

It just came back to me

Wheein faked cough to get our attention so I made my way to her

The worst pain is when you both love each other but you can't be together

It's so tormenting

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After the practice, I immediately head straight home

I need to think

I arrived in a park, nearby our house with some few cans of beer

I took a sit on the swing and opened one when someone talked from my back

I looked back and saw Seojoon, standing a few steps away from me

"You should've called me" he said

He took a sit beside me and grabbed a beer from the bag