Aaron

Part 1

Shadows setle on the place, that you left.

        The bed you once slept in is now empty, still showing your figure, before you left. The kitchen is empty, where you would make me breakfast in your boxers each morning. Your spot on the couch remains empty, now claimed by your blanket, that still smells like your cologne.

Our minds are troubled by the emtiness

        Your voice rings in my head, i can still hear you screaming at me. You broke the picture of us. We were cuddled up on  a blanket in mid july. It was warm and sticky, but the ocean always cooled us down.

destroy the middle, its a waste of time. From the perfect start- to the finish line

        Every thing had always been so perfect, our friends always said we were meant to be. Things always change. I thought i was going to marry aaron. I loved him more then anything.

And if your still breathing youre the lucky ones, cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs

        Im crying so hard, laying on the floor coughing. I cant breath without you, I need you. You were always the one there for me, I had never given you all of my love.

Setting fire to our insides for fun

        I dont bother going outside when i smoke now that hes gone. He never liked it, or that I did it. I know that I shouldnt, but it always calmed me down. The house gets foggy. I look over into the family room, where we would snuggle and drink coffes sunday morning. The floor is covered in glass. He broke the big picture of us, it was my favorite.

Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong, the lovers that went wrong.

        I knew it was my fault. I never should have cheated on him. He always had to film his movies or shows and i never really felt appriciated. But even when he came home late friday nights he would cuddle up with me in bed and tell me how much he loves me