without suspicion

1. the way you look at me...

I finally got out of the hospital.
I get out of there and I find myself like every night at Joe's, now it's like a ritual
evening: Amelia, Teddy and I in front of the bar drinking tequila.
Teddy didn't come that night, she had a problem with a patient and stayed there.
"The usual, thank you, Joe," I say, entering the club.
"Even for me" Amelia answers following me.
I turn around A little puzzled, having heard no noise coming from my shoulders, and let's face it, Amelia is not a quiet person.
She starts to laugh too.
After a few seconds she calms down and tells me: "let me guess, even you.
After seeing her we say goodbye by high-fiving, we're not the kind of friends you're hugging or saying sweet things to each other.
We sit down let's just take our seats and start drinking.
"Did you do anything productive today, Amy?"
I ask her giggling knowing the answer "No, actually," she says quietly.
"Strange, when do you ever do anything?" I ask her by bursting to laugh over the sentence.
She starts laughing again.
After a few seconds she calms down and tells me: "let me guess, you too today you did nothing?"
Obviously I say no, as I've been doing for over a week now.
She starts telling me about her fight with Link and how he was jealous of me.
I never understood this jealousy, Amelia and I were always just friends, maybe, but let's leave this little particular.
While Amelia keeps telling the story, we managed to get a lot of shots.
Eventually she tells me the hot moment of the situation, which is after the fight.
Maybe the drink tastes a little different, but I find it more beautiful and more attractive than usual, and that's when she started talking how they really made peace that I never saw again.
With the chair I approach you as if to make you understand what it does to me.
Look at you, I just think your laugh is amazing, with that 32-toothed smile that drives me nuts.
But I can't, I can't do what I want, I have to think about the consequences, I have to think about Maya. I love Maya, and that will never change.
I see who looks at me in a strange way, as if we were playing, I try to understand something from her eyes, but it is very difficult with the mind clouded by alcohol. I try to pick up some signals from her movements, and usually I can, but not tonight.
From when we first met, we were an open book, with no secrets, the only one is this, tonight's secret.
she keeps so I decide, as a joke, to hit on her.
She hasn't finished talking to me about how it went with Link, she keeps talking and talking until she makes a little mistake.
She starts to get confused with words, so I use this detail to remind her why she's not straight, me.
"I know why you're confused", I say without thinking about what to make up later.
"What are you referring to?" she asks me seriously confused.
"You're getting confused and I know the reason why."
She looks at me with a puzzling look, unable to understand what I'm referring to.
"Pretty seriously I don't understand what you're talking about".
I know exactly what to say after that, but I don't know if I want to.
I finally decide, I do.
I look at her firmly, with my eyes I take a look at her body and I look back at her blue eyes.
I'm gonna go over there and pull a lock of her hair off her face.
"There are two reasons"
"Ah, yes?"
"Well, yes.
The first is alcohol," slowly.
I'm going to get close to his ear.
"The other one is me," I whisper in her ear so she understands something about what's in my head.
I'm slowly walking away from her.
Amelia gets all stuff and her face gets the color of a tomato.
She can't move after what I told her.
She takes a deep breath and stands up in front of me.
"I'm glad you remember the main reason" she can tell me rigidly.
I can see from her eyes that she's no longer willing to play, I take it as a challenge.
I kindly ask you to come dance with me and accept without hesitation.
We jump in the middle of the club and start dancing whatever song they decide to play.
In the meantime we approach much more than the solid, we touch our hips and face, we throw glances as to provoke each other.
A slow one comes along and we get even closer.
One thing led to another and, by mistake, my hand slipped down her back.
Then she slaps me on the arm so I can take it off, she looks at me in a way she's never done before.
I think she's surprised, in a negative way though.
She doesn't understand my gesture, even I, why should I have touched her?
Why did my instincts advise me to do so? but above all because I listened to him?
Neither mine or her brain understand, so with a sharp movement she walks very quickly to get out of the bar.
The blockage before I can get through the door with my body in front of her arms folded.
"Carina, let me go," she says to me, looking at the floor.
"Amelia, you can't just leave, I don't know what came over me," I say.
"You can't always do something wrong and then say you don't know what's come over you".
From this last sentence I remain petrified. It's the worst I've ever heard, let's just say I got a little upset.
I take my eyes off his and I move it right in front of me where a few meters more there is the dartboard.
"All right, bye".
These are the last words she says to me before she passes me and walks out the bar door.
For a few seconds I stay straight in the mobile as she left me, but after I hear her footsteps getting lower and lower I turn to her looking for her eyes.