CATCH ME WHEN I FALL

CHAPTER 3

CHAPTER 3

DAZE P.O.V

Hi Im daze liv Min.. Everything feels so heavy nung makita ko si yana with her bestfriends na si ice and lia kasama ang girlfriend kong si risha.

Nasa coffee shop kame at alam kong nakatitig saken si risha.

"Do you still love Yana right?" She asked me na ikinagulat ko

"Hmm? No." I refuse

"You dont have to pretend na hindi mo na sya mahal daze" tugon ni risha

Napayuko ako sa sinabing yon ni risha. Oo kailan ko lang narealize nung simulang makipag break ako kay yana nung araw na yon na mahal ko paden pala sya..napagod lang ang puso ko sa isang bagay na akala ko ay relasyon namin at yon ang malaking pagkakamaling ginawa ko.

"But ri-"

"I know you still love her daze--at hindi kita ipagkakait don..pero bakit nagawa mong bitawan ang babaeng mahal mo paden hanggang ngayon?" She asked me straightly

Tumulo ang mga luha ko sa mga narinig ko. "Akala ko kase napagod ako sa relasyon naming dalawa at hindi pala yon ang dahilan..I know risha hindi yon sapat na dahilan pero kahit ako nag sisisi akong binitawan ko sya-"

"Then you date me kahit na alam mo sa sariling mong mahal mo pa sya.."

"Im sorry-"

"No. You dont have to say sorry."

"Risha-"

"Kung gugustuhin mong balikan ang relasyon na meron kayo go for it fight for it hinding hindi kita pipigilan na bumalik at ligawan ulet sya daze."

Risha is a kind hearted woman. Lahat ng ibang bagay yon ang inuuna nya bago ang sarili nya. I courted her because of that hindi ko lang talaga nalaman agad na mahal ko pa si yana

"Ayoko nang bumalik risha u is enough"

"You cant say that for now hahanapin mo paden ang pagmamahal na meron si yana na di ko kayang ibigay"

"But your love is enough" tugon ko and I hold her hand

She smiled on me and niyakap nya ako.

"Basta handa akong ipaubaya ka" she whispered.

"I wont let you to do that-"

Hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang dapat kong gawin at maramdaman.

Mahal ko pa si yana oo pero mas mahal ko si risha higit pa don. Risha doesnt deserve all of this. Worth it syang mahalin at alagaan.

I kissed her forehead. "I dont want to lose you rish--your love is enough and worth it kang mahalin"

She hugged me back at di namin alam na nagtitinginan na pala ang mga tao sa loob ng coffee shop at pumalakpak samin na akala mo nag propose ako.

I saw risha gets shy nung makita nya ang mga tao sa coffee shop na nasa amin ang atensyon she blushed and decided to cover her face.

I hold her hand and lumabas na kame ng coffee shop. Inihatid ko na si risha pauwi sa bahay nila and give her a good bye kiss and she kissed me back

"I love you baby-" sabi ko

She smiled at me and "I love you too take care and be a responsible driver okay?"

I nodded and giggled.

Bumalik nako sa kotse ko and I stare at my girl at the window she waved on me kahit di nya alam kung nakatingin ako sakanya or hinde na

*DRIVING*

Im still thinking of yana nung nagkita kame kanina. She didnt stare on me for once and I still see the pain from her eyes.

"Im sorry yana-" i mumbled.

"Im sorry for breaking you up and didnt think twice..my conscience still hunts me because I still love you" my voice cracked and I felt my tears rolling down on my cheeks

I feel the heavyness on my heart when I started to sob. Ngayon ko lang naiyak ang lahat matapos ang break up naming yon. I decided to park my car  for a while and give myself a break to cry.

"I still love you-" i whispered to myself

"But i dont want to lose the girl I love right now-"

"Risha deserves to be love too coz Im the one who courted her first"

"But how can I learn to love her whole heartedly if my heart still wants you?" I asked myself

"How?" I cried again

I release a loud sigh and I wipe my tears.

"Should I start to forget you and give all of my focus to risha I could give all the love I have?"

Pinaandar ko na ang kotse ko and umeecho paren sa isip ko ang mga sinabe ko noon kay yana.

"I promise to love you and I never get tired of loving you even the better or worst-"

She smiled on me and she hugged me back.

"Happy 5th anniversary my love." I whispered and kiss her until were both catching our breathe.

"Promise di ka mapapagod kahit na ilan taon na tayong magkasama?" She asked me

"I promised."

Lahat ng yon ay nakatatak paden sa isip ko at hina hunt ako ng konsensya ko

"And sorry kase di ko natupad ang pangako ko sayo noon na di ako mapapagod." I mumbled and I let my tears fall down.

Ganito pala kabigat sa puso kapag alam mo sa sarili mong nagi guilty ka. Nagui-guilty ka kase pinakawalan mo yung babaeng walang ginawa kundi ang mahalin ka at dahil sa walang kwentang rason na napagod ka.