I'm Broken. (Then Let Me Fix You.)

6. Let Me In

~Harper~

I wake up to birds chirping. It's Saturday and I'm happy. I don't know why but I feel so...good today.

My arms aren't itching and I don't feel pathetic. I hear regular show playing in the tv room and I immediately get out of bed. I run into the bathroom, brush my teeth and run downstairs and jump on the couch. "Whoa! You scared me." Jose says looking at me shocked. "Oh sorry, I heard regular show and..." I say shyly.

He chuckles and pulls me close to him. I cuddle into his chest and we watch regular show together.

"You like this show kitten?" He says smiling. "Ya, it's my favorite right before adventure time." I say looking up at him. "Is it now..." He trails off with a devilish grin on his face. He picks up the remote and switches off the tv.

"What the hell!" I shout hitting him. He chuckles at me and holds the remote up in the air. "Come on Jose! I'm missing regular show!" I shout trying to grab the remote out his hand. He laughs even harder and I shove him to the side and he falls off the couch letting go of the remote.

I jump of the couch and over him and walk for the remote. "Oh no you don't." He pulls my leg back causing me to fall to my knees. "Let. Go." I say trying to get free from his grip. He laughs even harder as I struggle to reach for the remote. "Almost...there..." I say almost touching the remote.

Then he pulls me under him and I can't help but laugh. "There we go." He says laughing with me. The laughing dies and is replaced with staring, but not the weird type of staring.

Looking into his eyes I blink uncontrollably and then stop. He gets closer to my face and I feel his breath on my lips. "We should...eat." I say trying to escape his eyes. He ignores me completely and continues to come closer. My eyes close and so do his.

I feel his soft lips on mine...God it feels good.

~Jose~

Finally! I've done it, I've kissed her. Her lips are soft and smooth, kissing her is like kissing a dream.

She kisses back and...damn! For a girl like her you'd expect her to suck ass at kissing, but she's better than all the girls I've kissed...way better. We pull away from each other panting for air

"Wow kitten, have you kissed someone before?" I ask as her cheeks turn a bright shade of red. She shakes her head and I smile. "Good..." I trail off looking at her swollen pink lips. I smile and so does she, I get off her and help her up. "That was nice." I say smiling about the kiss. "It wasn't bad." She teases me.

Did she just do that? Man she's become hotter to me.

"Your a tease." I smile at her. "Couldn't help it." She says walking into the kitchen leaving me dumbfounded. Damn this new Harper is fucking sexy.

I refocus myself and she's going through the fridge. She gets water and walks upstairs. "Your not hungry?" I raise an eyebrow at her. "Oh umm...I can't eat..." She trails off looking down. "Why?" I ask worriedly. "I have an eating disorder." She replies softly. Fuck! Why'd I have to ask.

Shame man, she's so...perfect yet so...broken. I walk to her and hug her tightly. "I'm sorry for asking kitten." I apologize. She hugs back and buries her face into my chest. "It's fine." She says softly. We pull away and she runs upstairs as I go back to the kitchen to make something to eat.

~Harper~

That kiss...it felt so...amazing. Like it was right and not wrong. I didn't feel like another one of the sluts Jose sleeps with, I felt as if it was supposed to happen...it felt real. I loved it, I didn't want to stop, but when we did I had to tease him.

A little bit of me was shocked at how brave I was...teasing him like that. I've always been terrified of Jose with him being a bad boy and all.

It's late noon and I don't know what to do, I have a choice between eating tv, drawing, sleeping or attempting to kill myself again. I don't feel so bad so I can't really push myself to cut or anything. I'm kinda tired from the lack of sleep that I got last night because all my dreams ended up being nightmares, thus waking me up in the middle of the night.

I decide to go with my sleeping option anyway I'm in my pjs so there's not much to do. I take my iron, vitamin, protein and sleeping pills down with the water. I take those pills in order to keep me alive with my disorder and so on. It's more like I'm forced to actually.

Your probably wondering why I don't just stop taking my pills, well that's because I don't want to die because of hunger. No disorder is going to kill me. I haven't stooped that low yet.

I get into bed and close my eyes.

-two hours later-

~Jose~

I walk into Harpers bedroom to make sure she's okay after eating. I really care about her and after what happened on Friday at school I don't trust her with her own life.

She's sound asleep and looks so cute.

I walk into her bathroom to begin my search for anything harmful to her. I search the whole bathroom for about twenty minutes and let out a breath of relief now believing that she doesn't cut herself.

To my luck-note the sarcasm, as I walk to her basin her health cabinet is open and holds a tiny metal box with scratches around it. I take it and open it. My heart drops at the sight of the many, many razors held with in it. I grow worried and angry. She's like this because everyone treats her like she's nothing when she's more than they'll ever be.

I close the box and put it inside my pocket before returning to her bedroom. She's still sleeping and she looks like she's dead. I walk to her and roll up her sleeve slowly. My heart drops further into the pits of my sorrow as I see her arm which is decorated with band aids and old looking cuts. They may be superficial cuts but there still there.

"I can help her...I know I can." I whisper to myself. I roll her sleeve down and walk out her room closing the door slowly so it doesn't wake her. I walk into my room and walk into the bathroom. I take the metal box out my pocket and dispose, more like expunge, the razors inside.

I'm going to help her, I'm going to save her life...she's a disaster waiting to happen...a walking time bomb ever so ripe and ready to blow up. I'm going to fix her. Help her realize how amazing and perfect she is...and make her my kitten.

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