The Royalties

Chapter 36

Siguro minsan kay Alisha pero hindi sobrang katulad ng pagdedepende ko kay Lance.

“No, you’re not. Hindi ka pabigat sa akin Cassy. You never asked me to stay. It is my decision to help you” He calmly said.

“Pero bakit mo ko tinutulungan?”

“Kasi nga mahal kita. Isn’t that enough reason for you?”

A tear escaped my eyes again.

“If…if I asked you not to love me anymore, will you do it?”

Hininto niya bigla ang sasakyan sa gilid.

He looked at me and I could see thousands of questions in his eyes.

“What are you thinking?” Parang takot na tanong niya.

I looked at my hands and sniffed.

“I…I just…I think…I think we should stay away from each other”

“Ano?! Bakit? Cassandra---”

“Masyado na kong dumedepende sayo! Kada iyak ko, yakap mo yung hinahanap ko. Kada lakad ko, ine-expect ko inaalalayan mo ko. Natatakot na ko Lance! Ayokong mahulog sayo ng tuluyan! Ayokong mapalapit sayo at masanay na lagi kang nandiyan! Can’t you see it? My dad died and I almost died too! If I let myself fall in love with you and you suddenly leave me….I don’t think I will be able to endure it….”

“Who told you I’m going anywhere? Tingin mo ikaw lang nahihirapan? Cassandra, hindi ko kayang layuan ka. Please stop pushing me away everytime you realized you love me too. I want to be at your side. I want to help you cure the wounds in your heart. Allow me to do it Cassy”

I cried even more.

Sobrang naguguluhan ako sa nararamdaman ko.

Sobrang nahihirapan ako.

I don't want him to go away but I want him gone at the same time.

Namatay ang papa ko dahil nalaman niyang boyfriend ko si Lance.

Nagmadali siyang umuwi to talk to me.

Ibig sabihin hindi niya tanggap ang relationship ko with this guy.

Maybe...I should do what my Dad wants me to do.

“I can’t love you, Lance”

“I’m not asking you to love me back Cassandra. Gusto ko lang hayaan mo ako na nasa tabi mo”