A Life with Him

Chapter 1

My life rotated at home, school, home, school always like that. They didn't allowed me to make friends, to go anywhere and most strictly is having a boyfriend. I didn't complain with that coz I used to it so its normal for me. I don't know the reason why they threated me like this though they didn't hurt me physically but I think they hurt me emotionally. All of my actions have limits. I always put in my mind that who I am to complain. Im just their daughter, yes Im only child but I didn't get what I want, I'll never experienced to be spoiled by them. Honestly they didn't allowed me to use phone or any gadgets and create social media accounts. The reason they always said when I try to question them was it's not important that I can live without it.

Were living here at the province, our house was located at the middle of green field. It's not small and not huge either. I always relaxed myself in my veranda. From here I can see the wide green field that filled with different trees, vegetables and flowers. The fragrant breeze of  air gives me peace of mind. It can cleared all the questions in my head even just a few minutes of staring at it.

"Woahhhh I really love nature" I said while clossing my eyes to feel the warm breze invade in my body. I open my arms to accept all the wind coming from the field. I back on my reverie when I heard a knock from the door knowing that it was my parent I immediately open it, and here she is standing at the front of my room. I gave her a small smile but she answered just a nod.

"What it is mom?" I asked her while looking at my feet.

" Let's eat the dinner is ready" she said before leaving in front of me.

And because I know that dad is short tempered and he hate if Im not joining dinner with them so I go downstairs as fast as I could.

Pagdating ko doon ay hindi pa nagagalaw ang pagkain tanda na hinintay talaga nila ako. Nag-uusap sila habang kumakain at kapag may tinatanong sila ay sinasagot ko lang ito ng tango. After eating I volunteer myself to wash dishes so they can rest early. I immediately go upstairs after washing dishes, I take a bath first and lay down my self in my bed.

My room's colors are white and all corners are colored with black paint. I love reading books so I have two book shelves filled with different stories. Mom and dad didn't know that I have a hidden cellphone. Because they didn't allow me to use any gadgets I buy this secretly to my classmates two weeks ago. I created my fake account because I know that they always monitoring me so it's better to be safe.

My classmates thinks that Im meticulous, hard to please and many bad thoughts about me. I can't blame them because Im always quite Im just speak when they asked me. Actually because of being an only child and having a busied parents helps me to grow all by myself, to become matured and independent woman.

Im not innocent as other people thought about me especially in a woman and man case because I always read it in my book. When I read those book I really want to experience what I read because they say that it's lost my sanity, it gave me pleasure. I know it's wrong to disobey my parents but sometimes my curiosity bring me to the highest level and it gave me excitement.

Today our instructor is busy so I decided to go to the library. When I enter I greet the librarian first before going to my favorite spot. Im reading my matured book when I hear a faint growl from behind the book shelves. At first I ignored it but when I heard it a second time I decided to stand up and take a look. And just like I was thinking I saw a woman sitting on the man’s lap while kissing that you thought there was no tomorrow. I couldn’t move at first but when I realize what they were doing, I quickly went back to my seat. My brain seems to explode with the amount I think in the book I just read such scenes but now I see with my two eyes my imagination has become even more naughty.

That scenario didn't leave my mind even when I was at home. So I just picked up my cell phone to divert my attention. When I opened my fake account, someone added me before I accepted him, I stalked him first and since I didn't see anyone else with him, I accepted him. As soon as I was able to power it off, I received a chat from him. And since I'm not sleepy yet I replied.

Simula ng nagkachat kami ay palagi na kaming nagpapalitan ng mensahe kada gabi. Dahil komportable na ako sa kanya ay ikinukwento ko sa kanya ang buhay ko. Mabait sya kaya magaan ang loob ko sa kanya. Pero hindi ko sinabi sa kanya ang tunay kong pangalan dahil baka isa sya sa mga nakakakilala sa magulang ko.

Maaga akong nagising dahil may pasok pagbaba ko ay wala na sila mom and dad. Halos iyon palagi ang naaabutan ko tuwing umaaga pagkagising ko marami na din akong napapansing kakaiba sa mga ikinikilos nila pero pinagsasawalang bahala ko nalang. Hindi man nila pinapakita sa akin ang pagmamahal na nais ko, pinagkakaitan man nila ako sa mga bagay na gusto ko ay mahal ko pa rin sila dahil sila ang mga magulang ko. Hindi naman nila ako ginugutom at minamaltrato kaya isa na siguro yun sa dahilan para mahalin sila.

Lumipas nanaman ang oras na halos mapanis ang laway ko. Pag-uwi ko sa bahay ay pakiramdam ko ay may nangyayaring hindi ko alam dahil yung malawak naminh taniman na dati ay puno ng mga magagandang pananim ay unti-unti ng namamatay. Noong una di ko na muna pinansin dahil baka sa panahon lang pero isang gabi narinig kong nagtatalo si mom at dad. At dahil bihira ko silang marinig na magtalo ay bumaba ako para sana magtanong kaso napatigil ako ng biglang sumigaw si mom.

"No Servencio.Hindi" malakas nyang sigaw kay dad.

"Please Emily ito nalang ang paraan para di ako makulong" nagmamakaawang sabi ni dad.

Wait anong makulong?tanong ko sa aking isipan. Alam kong maling sumabat sa kanila pero di ko na mapigilan kaya lumabas na ako sa pinagtataguan ko at nagtanong na ikinagitla nilang dalawa.

"Mom, dad what's going on? punong-puno ng pagtatakang tanong ko sabay baling kay mom at dad.

"K-kanina ka pa ba jan?" medyo nautal na tanong ni mom.

"No mom kakababa ko lang po" magalang na sagot ko sa kanya.

"Rynn go to your room now" madiing utos ni dad kaya kahit labag sa loob ko ay umakyat pa rin ako sa aking kwarto.