Happiness

How I've cried
And how I've wept
And how I've withered in my sorrow

I feel it coming so loud and clear
My ribs expanding
grasping for air

It fills my lungs
with scorching pain
That burns it all without a care

My guts explode
From its sheer might
The loudness breaking them apart

It's wild and raw
Consuming all
My mind ablaze my feelings sore

I scream I scream I scream again
A thousand voices deep inside
There's nothing left but all my rage

The artist screams,
The mother too
The worthless, unachieved and folly

It fills my lungs,  
Intoxicating air of nothing else
but pain and tears

My body numb, my ears hurt
An endless rage inside
I twirl and dance forever more

Just let it out,
just let it breathe
Don't shut it back inside

My feet are bloody
My will is none
The dancing cannot stop

Denied release
in unforgiving silence
Trapped, dying slowly in its cage 

Forever muffled,
Forever hidden
Engulfed in numbness, entrapped in fear

And how I've cried
And how I wept
and how I withered in my sorrow

As I kill the screams inside
And I smile to the outside
Happiness in all its bliss.