Oceanblue | KV ✔

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Hoseok did not violate him.

By the sight of his love interest crying so heartbroken, Hoseok pulled away, disgusted with himself and horrified how he could ever think this was an acceptable idea, these thoughts of taking someone against their will, were disgusting and Hoseok had no excuses.

He let his desire for Taehyung blur his mind and nearly did something unforgivable.

"I'm sorry, Taehyung. I was blinded by my selfish desires and did not think of you", Hoseok apologized, quickly grabbing his shirt and pants to dress himself and Taehyung turned away from him, wiping his tears away.

He did not utter a word, didn't want to face Hoseok, nor talk to him. What he has tried to do was indeed unforgivable, despite him not fulfilling his disgusting plan. "Taehyung", Hoseok said unhappily, god, he wanted this beautiful being so badly, wanted to have him to himself but just the thought of ruining Taehyung's purity made Hoseok halt. He could not do it, he wasn't a bad man.

He wasn't a villain, just a man madly in love!

“Tell me what you want and I'll give you everything your heart desires", Hoseok blurted out, staring at Taehyung's ethereal features, his gorgeous side profile and a sigh wanted to break through his lips. Because Hoseok knew he was not the one Taehyung loved.

Taehyung's head whipped around, sitting up and glaring, actually glaring at Hoseok. Despite the beginning of Taehyung's journey on the ship, Hoseok has never seen Taehyung glaring. Or maybe he did but his mind decided to forget it.

“Hoseok, there is nothing I want from you. I'm confused why you behave this way... why are you trying to take Jeongguk's title away?”, Taehyung asked, fiddling with his fingers in his lap and he looked helplessly at Hoseok, trying to understand what was behind his sudden change of feelings.

It was the wrong question to ask. Because Hoseok's face turned into a picture of fury. "BECAUSE I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU!", the pirate yelled at the petit raven who gasped, flinching away. "You have really no idea what you're doing to me, don't you... I desire you, Taehyung, so much. I dreamed to have you in my arms, dreamed to be with you but Jeongguk had to fucking ruin it!", Hoseok seethed, the other shuffling away from him, scared.

"And I know, with him in the picture, your heart will never belong to me", Hoseok said, he was heartbroken because he understood that his love wasn't enough, that he has lost even though his love has been nothing but pure.

"What a-are you saying?", Taehyung stammered, not wanting to hear the words from Hoseok who has been so friendly and whom Taehyung has considered a friend.

"Because you are in love with Jeongguk!!"

Taehyung gasped, eyes filling with tears. He could not deny it. His heart has betrayed him and chosen Jeongguk, even if he didn't want it at first, fought against it with all his might but he did fall and now Hoseok knew as well.

"See", Hoseok cried out heartbroken. "My love would never be enough. How can I force myself on you, my love, when your heart could never belong to me?! I am not a monster so I won't touch you. I wanted to ignore it, wanted to take you as mine... but you are an angel, Taehyung. And I'm not allowed to taint you", Hoseok cried out.

"I'm a weak man, weak to my dreams and desires. But not even I as a lovesick fool could take what isn't mine to have", he said, trembling in his spot and he fell to his knees. To his surprise, Taehyung timidly got out of bed, pulling the blanket over his petit form before engulfing Hoseok in his arms.

"I forgive you, Hoseok. And I'm sorry", Taehyung whispered and Hoseok pressed his face against Taehyung's shoulder.

And he cried, against the one he has intended to ruin, only to be the one to be ruined himself.

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Y'all thought Haha--

so, I read over this chapter, and I deem it a bit confusing, sorry for that. Also, if I read anything about Tae and his choices or readers complaining, I will simply delete them. For my mental health, I will not engage with complaints anymore, constructive criticism is completely okay but not readers voicing out their thoughts rather rudely.

I don't give a damn whether you like it or not, I write for myself. You are free to enjoy my content but I don't need ppl bullsh*ting their, for me then, unimportant opinions.

Thank you for understanding ♡♡

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