A Blanc destruction

Chapter two, memories

okay well i'm in my online classes bored so why not write another chapter <3

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cat blanc's pov:

I still remember the day i snuck out to go to school and before my father caught me and ordered gorilla to take be back home,

i met master fu

i call this day my lucky day.

Since the day we met, being cat noir made me feel alive

i can be myself around people

i'm loved for who i am not who i'm ment to be

that's why being Adrian annoys me because i'm another of my father's designs

(well he's not clothes obviously but y'all get my point)

Meeting plagg and bugaboo was such a blessing

and being a supper hero was an escape from all this pressure

well at least i can express my feeling by fighting villains beside ladybug and take out my anger on them

and m'lady always listened to me even when i was lame and made my flirty jokes ( i know she low key liked them)

And plagg, well he was the only being i can be honest with

and he loves me for who i am.

The tough of plagg brings me so much pain because right now, right here, he's stuck in my ring.

I tried to detransform but it was useless.

Poor plagg, he must he starving.

I still talk to him because i know he can listen to me even tho he can't respond

but i'm sure he's terrified, terrified of me.

My father took the last bit of love and passion i had in my life

i despise him

i'm not even mad that he's dead, the man got what he deserved
 
but my sweet Marinette is dead, my Marinette... i-is d-d-dead.

I still remember the day we met at school, the day i gave her my umbrella, the day i met her as ladybug...

she always thought that she was pathetic but in reality she was so smart, so powerful, she always had the right idea at the right time, she was beautiful and sweet

well Marinette is the lady of my dreams...

When i discovered that she was ladybug, my heart melted because i always had a crush on her

but ladybug owned my heart.

Well back then i didn't know that Marinette was Ladybug

(it's the blond in him :/ )

and the reason i always had a soft spot for Marinette was because her kindness and the way she always cheered up her friends and the way she always put other's happiness before hers reminded me of ladybug.

When we started dating was when i started to reach happiness, it was my time to have fun and love and be normal

but she broke up with me, out of the blue.

I still blame myself and ask myself was have i done? Did i annoy her? Did i treat her bad? Was i not good enough?

But when it came to Ladybug and Cat noir,  we put feeling aside cause Paris doesn't deserve to be destroyed just because we broke up.

I still can't figure out how Hawk Moth figured my identity but i think it was when i transformed to save Marinette from father's akuma, he must have seen me thru the windows of his office.

Oh well, it doesn't matter now

i destroyed the love of my life

my kwami is trapped in my ring

and my friends are dead.

The only feeling i can feel is anger, and the day i became cat blanc, my emotions were so high i couldn't control them.

Well now i know why people get akumatized easily

because when the akuma interacts with you, all you think about is destroying and all you feel is anger,

you crave destruction, you crave pain, you crave power and you become kind of crazy

but thru the years i managed to suppress them but still i can't control them all the time.

If Marinette was here, i could merge my miraculous with hers and bring back everyone

and i could fix everything...

But let's be realistic she's not coming back.

The moon we danced under is now destroyed, just like everything.

My father was right, i am a disappointment, i'm nothing but chaos, i am nothing...

I'm f-ing useless and i destroyed the only person i ever loved that loved me back.

Everyday i think about destroying myself because what's the point of living?

I'm on my own in a ghost city.

Oh well, i'm waiting for one more month and then i will cataclism myself.

No one's pov:
Cat blanc is sitting on the roof of the stadium, singing and overthinking everything

until...

*ladybug and bunnyx arrive to the stadium*

Ladybug: What happened here?!!
Bunnyx: The less you know about the future, the better. Look mini bug all you have to do is capture the akuma, you can do this.

*Ladybug walks around and sees cat blanc*

Ladybug: C-Cat noir??????
Cat blanc: M'lady?!
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i won't be writing the dialogue in the cat blanc episode i will just write their pov and their feelings, c u :)