If, and Only If || (Xiao x Reader)

十二

"Kaeya, it's not fair how you have such beautiful man boobs, when there are women out there who do not have any." Y/N whined on their behalf. Then looked at Rosaria's chest. And sighed loudly. "This never applies to you, Rosaria."

"Pssh. I know that already." She joked.

"And Diluc, Kaeya, and Zhongli. WHY DO YOU ALL HAVE SUCH BEAUTIFUL LONG HAIR. I do not understand."

"Thanks!" Kaeya cheekily smiled.

Diluc nodded, with a small blush at the compliment, while Zhongli slept.

"Oh don't even get me started on the other men around here. Xiao, Tartaglia, and Venti. I swear to the seven winds, the adeptis, and the seven archons you all look gorgeous. Why."

"I'm built different." Childe answered with a smile.

Xiao turned his head away, with a larger blush than Diluc. And Barbatos giggled.

"And my one and only favorite wife. Rosaria. Geez. You're too perfect." She sighed, and hugged her with a drunk voice, and a small hiccup. Rosaria smiled and pet her head.

"Hey, hey! Xiao! When are you going to confess your undying love for Y/N, hm~?" Barbatos teased.

They all looked at him, while Y/N had her ears covered by Rosaria, to save Xiao from the embarrassment of being exposed.

"I— I do not know what you are speaking of. Such feelings are not necessary." Xiao suddenly spoke in such a stern way.

"Stop being so tense, the old blockhead and I already know. It's obvious per say, and you can't fool the eyes of mine." Barbatos sang.

"Oooh. You fancy, Y/N?" Kaeya teased, himself.

"I said I do not." Xiao declared.

The whole group groaned in sarcasm, knowing well he's lying.

"What are you all talking about?" Y/N got up from hugging Rosaria.

"No~thing." Childe said himself, enjoying the atmosphere, in the room.

Diluc shook his head in disappointment at the immature adults.

Childe left first, carrying Morax back to Liyue. Barbatos had to try and hold Xiao back from attacking Childe.

Rosaria and Barbatos was next to leave, to
Y/N's dismay.

Xiao had to carry Y/N back to Liyue, and said goodbyes to Kaeya and Diluc. While Kaeya was passed out, and Diluc slapped his head to try and wake him up.

Xiao carried her like a bride, since it was easier that way. But Y/N didn't want to go back to her mountain to sleep yet. And it was still 10 minutes until midnight, which was the promised time until they call it a day. So Xiao brought her over to somewhere random. Which just so happened to be Dihua Marsh. There was a boat there where no one was using so they sat there.

"You see those stars? I could pick them out. And then slam it onto the surface." Y/N exclaimed. And while she was pointing to the different stars, and explaining each one of them, Xiao wasn't listening. He was too busy staring at Y/N instead.

Xiao had a thought, and brought out the small jar with the star inside that she had given him before. And brought it up in front of the sky.

"You still had it with you?" She smiled, asking.

"I did." Xiao had it with him at all times. "After I started spending time with you, I started to feel these feelings and emotions. A large range of them. I thought I wasn't capable of having them before when I was in the hands of the past god. Until I was saved by Rex Lapis, and you." He admitted, after he brought the jar down and stared at his palm that held it inside his hand.

Y/N stayed quiet to let him continue.

"I used to think that even after I was saved, thinking I was emotionless and heartless. And I kept going back to the past, that's not as bright. I killed so many people, and I could hear their yelling, and hate. It corrupts my head. I kill the monsters to stop them from endangering Liyue, because of the contract Rex Lapis had us be bound to, as an adeptus. And I owe him... a lot. So of course I would not defy his orders, and continue to serve for him."

"Do you still think you're emotionless and heartless?" She turned her head to meet his honey gold eyes as they glowed, from the moonlight. They were pleasing to look at.

"No." Xiao answered confidentially with a smile of his again.

"Then I'm glad. I'm happy you feel that way." She seemed a little sad.

"You sound disappointed."

"Uh... well. I really am happy for you. I was just worried."

"Worried?"

"Well... I was afraid you wouldn't come visit after you've felt happiness and you wouldn't have the need to come visit anymore because you would know you're capable being with yourself now." She said slowly, while keeping her gaze on the water, with her knees to her chest.

Xiao widened his eyes.

"I feel selfish. Truly, because I want to keep people I care about dear to me. But I also don't because I'm afraid, of them being my weakness and be used against me... Like the old village..." She trailed off.

"I won't let myself or others be used against you." Xiao declared staring right into her e/c eyes, deeply.

"Xiao..."

"I won't. And I will keep my word."

Y/N felt a tug on her lips go upwards.

"I... thank you. I appreciate it."

Xiao shook his head.

"You are in no need of thanking me."

"Really? Then why do you do it, Xiao?" She asked quietly, with teasing smirk.

Xiao's gaze didn't falter one bit, as he stared right at her.

"Because, I think I love you."

Y/N never knew the moon could be so bright...