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Chapter 1 How it begon

I Remember this day so clearly, but yet I always question my self if it's real or not? I remember crying because I missed my mom and a boy telling me he can make me feel better he said one word. "Sex" I was only 8 years old and didn't know what exactly sex was. He brought me to his room and got under the blankets. And after they I don't Remember what happened. I have re accruing nightmares of that night being molester and raped. I sometimes think I'm crazy to think that, but one day I hope to find out if it was true. After that insistent I felt no control in my life, after that my parents got divorced which tore me apart. I loved my mom and dad so much how could they do this to me and my brother? At the age of 8 I fell into a depression. My brother resented my mom and I was stuck in the middle confused. My mom put me in counseling but I never really opened up. My father always made promises to me that he would break so I never believed anything anyone said to me. At 8 years old I did not realize I was going to develop something that would change my life and mentally and physically destroy me.