Random stuff that I sometimes think about

This day. (aka. 9th March 2021)

Well I don't know.

Today was pretty much a.. "clusterfuck" of a day to me for whatever reason-

Well.. online school as usual, y'know.. boring conferences, that's why I play music while doing them.. makes them not so boring I guess?

..Meeting New people (I guess? Don't know)
Basically all of that...

For some reason I was really anxious today and.. basically

My knees were weak, legs heavy, I'm spaghetti..
or whatever Eminem said.
Well I basically felt like that.

...And I thought that if I'd participate in a job with social stuff, I'd become better..

Guess who didn't become better?
Me-

Just gonna be honest to myself and say that I can't really come up with good plans when it comes to stuff like that.

Also hate to know that life will be harder.

I still can't just give up though.
That'd make me weak. And even though.. I am weak, I can't just pull that cord. At least not yet.

I mean, that's what life apparently is. You have these moments where everything seems to fall apart, but you have to try and pull it together...
And get up.

You have to get up. Get up and build it up again. Or try to be flexible.
I can't come up with a good wordplay on that one though, sorry.

But yea. Dont give up.

It may be hard, but.. the longer you wait.. the worse it'll get. Don't be afraid.

You'll make it. And it'll be fine. You will have accomplished something great, and..

You'll be proud you did it and overcame yourself.

(Anyway, how did this become so wholesome? ..well.. I hope I atleast somewhat managed to.. help you. Bye-)