Random stuff that I sometimes think about

Relatability.

Okay.. This is mostly thoughts about my past self and stuff so.. beware- I guess.

I remember when I was younger (around 13/14 or so, idk) I was some sort of outsider, trying to fit in... Or actually, that's not how I did it. I tried to relate to usual stuff people... feel.

Usually, because it's the internet and stuff things could get pretty dark and depressing, (atleast from the stuff I've seen.. or remember.) So, I've tried to listen to.. Music with deep lyrics. (You could basically call me the basic "I'm 14 and this is deep" person.)

I tried to understand the meaning of the lyrics and.. After a longer while, I guess it took up on me. I may haven't been able to relate to them (I still don't, I don't think I actually have actual depression or something.. but I think I should've get myself checked on that one- even if I think I'm fine.)

Back to that thing.. I think me having done that actually took a bit on my mental health, but atleast I can relate to things a bit more now... NOT.

I actually just feel pretty dead sometimes, I guess that's normal, but I'm feeling concerned. 

People.. You who read this and are in the situation I was in, ..You know what? Do whatever you wish to do. I won't stop you.

However, don't treat yourself TOO harshly. It will probably hurt you..
A LOT.

Dont force yourself on something that WILL hurt you. Badly. Having physical wounds.. they can heal. But mental scars.. are harder to fix.

So.. um.. I May got a bit carried away there so-

Thanks for reading this part, I guess.