His Sin ✔️

FIFTEEN

"Have you thought about what I said to you, when we were in the Passion Pack?" Lev asks softly, glancing at me.

I pause, suddenly unable to focus on the words in front of me.

"I've been so busy with work I haven't really thought about anything," I admit flippantly, daring to raise my gaze to look at him. He's anxious, I can tell, fingers wound together, eyebrow raised in anticipation for my answer.

"Will you take some time to think about it now?" he offers, tilting his head back and forth.

I put my book down on my lap, turning my entire body to face him. There is no more excuses for avoiding this conversation with him. Lev is my best friend, at the end of the day, and he will understand, no matter how I end up feeling. I just hope this doesn't ruin our friendship forever.

"How long have you felt this way?" I ask him. This came out of nowhere, so I'm curious to know how long he has spent hiding his feelings from me.

"I've always felt this way. I've just done so much to fight it," Lev exclaims, reaching out to grab my hand, squeezing it tightly. His touch is hot, making my stomach turn. "The last thing I want is to ruin our friendship."

And now you may have.

"I don't want that either, which is why I'm putting of speaking to you about it," I explain.

I've also not wanted to truly sit down to think about it at risk I'll come to a frightening conclusion. What if I can really see myself being with him? Growing up, I was always attracted to him, and had he asked me out then, I would have agreed. But now, my life is so complicated, even if I know Lev would be a good, kind lover.

"You don't want to be with me, do you?" he breathes, voice so soft and pained, already defeated that it has my stomach churning uncomfortably. He's hurt by this, and I hate knowing I'm the one who is hurting him.

"I don't know...I'm confused. This is all so much to think about," I tell him, my head falling into my hands.

Lev rests his hand on my back. "I'm not going to push you into it."

"What about your mate? Why not wait?" I ask him, sweeping my hands back through my hair. I know that's a concern of mine, and why I've always been apprehensive about starting a relationship. If I do decide to be with Lev, then what happens if my mate comes into my life? Then Lev's feelings will be truly hurt.

"I can't imagine having a connection with anyone else as important as ours," he tells me firmly.

I realise grimly that he isn't just saying this out of passion, that he means it. It means a lot to tell someone that they are more important than their future mate. It's rare, but it happens, where people vow to stay with the person they first fell in love, even if they find their mate. I don't want that for either of us.

"You don't know that Lev...Not right now at least," I claim, not wanting him to make such a drastic decision. Your mate is someone you're destined to be with. Lev cannot mistake our connection for anything close to a mate bond.

"It may not make sense to you, but it makes sense to me," he exhales. "Why not try?"

"I can't lose you Lev...I can't," I insist, wishing he would see this from my perspective. Lev is the only person I have in my life who I care about, and who cares about me, so if I lost him to this, I don't know what I would do.

"And you won't. Even is after a week you decide the thought of me in a romantic or sexual way disgusts you, I'll back off," he assures me. I can't tell if he's begging, or trying to convince me at this point. I had no idea he was so passionate about this. "You don't even have to explain it to me."

I look down at my hands, apprehensive. "I don't know."

"Just promise me you'll consider it?" he whispers. I look up at him, knowing that it's the least I can do for him right now.

"Okay, I'll consider it," I relent.

Lev doesn't even bother hiding his relief, a beautiful smile consuming his entire face. It makes me smile too. I really will consider it. I will weigh my options and decide whether it would be good for us to give it a try.

"Maybe you should get some sleep," Lev offers, motioning toward my room.

I nod, even though I'm not very tired. "That's a great idea."

Sweeping my hands back through my hair, I walk into my bedroom, looking forward to collapsing into bed to forget about all of this. However, I stop short, realising my window is open, curtain billowing about.

Narrowing my eyes, I glance to my right, seeing Cian standing right in the centre of my room, hands shoved in his pockets, looking at me with a raised brow.

"Oh no," I breathe.

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