𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐲𝐳𝐞𝐝|𝐊𝐭𝐡𝐱𝐁𝐭𝐬 𝐓𝐚𝐞𝐠𝐢✔︎

❤︎Chapter 8❤︎

It was a struggle getting home because one of my hyungs hit one of my bruises that were fresh. I just groan and throw myself onto my couch facing upwards, staring up at the ceiling.

Suddenly the words people have said bubbled in my mind.

'Go kill yourself'

'You're just a mistake'

'Fat pig'

'You're parents should've aborted you'

'Stop being so annoying'

'Nobody wants to see your ugly face'

Those thoughts were all that I could think of. I get up and go to my bathroom. I go to the mirror and look at myself, I see bruises and cuts going down my cheek and jawline.

'My cheeks are too chubby' I think to myself. I'm such a burden, nobody loves me. I couldn't take it anymore. I look in the cabinet hoping to find what I was looking for. After searching for a while I finally found it.....

.....A razor blade

I was holding the razor blade in my hand staring at it. 'This is the only way to take away my pain' I said to myself. I lifted my sleeves up and held the blade against my skin.

⚠️Warning: self harm⚠️

I slide the blade across my skin hissing from the pain, but slowly the pain goes away. I continue marking my skin with cuts.

One for being a burden....

Two for being fat....

Three for being a disappointment....

Four for being a bad friend....

Five for being ugly....

Six for being alive...

20.....

20 cuts littered my arm....

Not that I care, I deserve it.

I was beginning to feel dizzy from the blood loss, but I just ignore it and get up so I can bandage my arm. I don't bother trying to clean them well, maybe I will get an infection and die but nobody would care.

I walk out the bathroom and change into my pajamas, not bothering to take a shower. I walk to my bed and lay down staring at the ceiling, I've never been able to sleep anymore, I normally would have called one of my hyungs and ask them to sing for me to help calm me down.

A memory flashed through my head.

*Flashback*

Thunder and lighting were keeping Taehyung up all night. He was under his blanket shaking and crying. A loud clap of thunder was heard outside causing the male to jump and shake violently, he never liked thunderstorms. Taehyung decided to call one of his hyungs hoping they would help him any way they could. He decided to call Jungkook.

On call

Bold- Jungkook
Italics- Taehyung

Hello?

Hyung...

Oh Tae, what is it?

I'm scared hyung

I'm sorry Taehyung, I know how much you hate storms.

Can you sing me a song, please?

Oh, ok sure

Thank you hyung

Anything for you Tae

Lately I've been thinking, thinking about what we had

I know it was hard, it was all that we knew, yeah.

Have you been drinking, to take all the pain away?

I wish that I could give you what you, deserve

Cause nothing could ever, ever replace you

Nothing can make me feel like you do.

You know there's no one, I can relate to
And know we won't find a love that's so true.

There's nothing like us, there's nothing like you and me

Together through the storm.

There's nothing like us, there's nothing like you and me

Together.

I gave you everything, baby, everything I had to give

Girl, why would you push me away?

Lost in confusion, like an illusion

You know I'm used to making your day.

But that is the past now, we didn't last now

Guess that this is meant to be.

Tell me was it worth it?

We were so perfect

But baby I just want you to see

There's nothing like us, there's nothing like you and me

Together through the storm.

There's nothing like us, there's nothing like you and me

Together.

There's nothing like us, there's nothing like you and me

Together through the storm.

There's nothing like us, there's nothing like you and me

Together.

Soon Taehyung fell asleep with a small smile on his face, thankful for having people who care about you.

*End of flashback*

I wipe the tears that fell down my face from the memory. I sigh and turn onto my side, 'I miss you hyungs' was my last thought before I closed my eyes trying to sleep.

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